Ok... I am married to a sweet and funny man. He says he loves me and shows me he does many times. He is involved in many activities and has his share of drinkin time with his biker buds. He is a wonderful father and I love him....my first true love.
I began to feel sad when I was newlywed and pregnant. The stress of when are you going back to work began.
I rushed back to make him happy.
He got into fishing a lot and I always knew he had a passion for his Riel. He purchased a few boats and I was told that I should learn my role. I was confused because I thought it was very disrespectful.
Over time I took on some crazy jobs because I had a new addition and avoiding child care is hard to do.
I was happy because things began to get better. I had a few computer based jobs and I had to advertise a lot for the company's and one day I get yelled at about spending to much time on the computer and how much I seem to love my computer in a mocking way.
I was torn with stress of constant look for employment and going from a perfect work slate to the economy going bad and jobs not needing me..just like gun fire.
I finally got a job and I am still there but, I am very much verbally abused there. I am not a quitter so I stay there and take it.
I am going to school soon for make up and love putting on self fashion shows. He shows no interest in my life so I hang with my self and my neighbor a lot. She understands me and a good vent.
I recently sparked an interest in alternative modeling and found a spark inside my soul. Even if it is just for fun...it makes me happy.
He is so mad at me. He hates me taking an interest in anything creative. To him I am wasting my time.
He does all kinds of fun things and I am a stay at home mom...at the end of the day I need a release.
He asked me if he could make a big financial purchase and I said no (three prior rent checks bounced) we can do a purchase at a later time and school starts soon for me....he looked at me with an expression I will never forget...mind u in front of a bunch of friends and said...I don't give a f what u think.
I feel that he resents the fact I am at home and only partially working. I think he wants to be the one at home.
I try my hardest to be a good wife but, I am torn in what to do...please help!!!! ↓
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