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Hey guys my name is Susana I am 18 years old and I have been anorexic since about the age of 12 yes I know what you must be thinking i'm crazy that I started so young but truth be told I started young not because I was fat because I was very skinny actually but because I got bullied alot in elementary they used to tease me saying I was this fat fat cow ect.. and the stupid thing about it was that I actually believed them!!!! Yes I did and I feel stupid about it now but hey what can you do right? So I started to stop eating and excercise constantly but I mean to the point where I just passed out! years went by and I just got so used to it it felt almost normal like a daily routine, my parents didn't know because they aren't that keen to get to know there daughter, they know now but I had to tell them, okay so anyway I also started getting angry and sad for everything my mood changed sooo much I just hated it I would snap at anyone that was around I didn't care at all! I also started wearing baggy clothes and just getting very sick and to a point where I went to the hospital for stomach pain and the doctors diagnosed me with being anemic and that I Gerd disease! By then I wanted to stop because I was ruining my body and I was sooooooo skinny I was weighing about 92 pounds!!!! I hated myself and everything about me so I started realizing I needed to stop and more importantly I WANTED to stop! So I took drastic measures and told my parents and they just started crying and wanting me to get into therapy (of course) and so I guess it just is like step by step i've been taking it at a time! I also started eating better and not excercising as much! I am still to this day recovering and I feel a ton better than I did and I feel better about myself too! I still get occasional heartburn and the anemia has gotten less although my bones have gotten very brittle, I look at myself and the world differently and I appreciate that, now I am at a healthy weight of 110 pounds I know it's still not alot to go on with but like I said I am recovering it's hard to gain the weight back once you lost it the way I did!

Well anyway I just wanted to share my story and wanted to hear your guys's stories and maybe see if anyone of you needs advice or help that I could maybe give you or help you on because I would love to do that I did it for myself and I would love to help anyone in need of the same problem that I have/had so if you do please respond here or write me personally

Thanks for reading guys most appreciated

Susana
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Name: rumby12 | Date: Sep 6th, 2008 3:58 PM
i am trying to find my way out of being anorexic. Daily it is a struggle to not go back to the obssesive lifestyle where the only thing that matters is how good i did at not eating. I was determined to die this way, but the other day at the grocery store i had a small seizure and my heart felt like it kept stopping. I had a full on panic attack and thought i was dead. I thought to myself i cannot believe that i am going to let myself die here in a grocery store with all these strangers watching...and not only that, that it would be my fault. I am 5'8" and weigh about 105. I couldn't help but compare that to your 92 lbs and feel somewhat dissapointed in myself, but i know that that is not my voice saying that. Anyways i read your blog and it made me feel like i wasnt alone. Reaching out and being open about this whole thing has really been saving me. So thank you and maybe sometime we could talk more.

Name: BalletAllTheWay | Date: Sep 20th, 2008 6:41 AM
Hi rumby12 sorry for taking so long to write you back it's been hectic for me lately and I just found out that my father won't be there for me on my birthday which sucks but I guess thats all right right? Well anyway I was reading your story and it touched me it made me cry so much and I haven't cried like that in a long long time so I just wanted to say thank you for sharing that with me and having the heart to open up the way you did that was a very brave thing to do I admire you for that and as for what happened to you I am glad you are realzing it too that you need to stop doing what you are doing it's not healthy and it isn't something you want to do my friend died from this and it was the single most hard thing I had to go through because I also knew I was anorexic and I was dumb enough to not know that you could die from it I just thought you could do it and thats that but I realzed that is not the way it happens and I am glad I am starting to realize those things because I feel like I need to open my eyes and realize there is more to life than just being skinny and it took me a while to figure that out but what can you do right? Well anyway I am here to tell you it's going to get easier even if you feel like it won't it will you should beleive in that because if you don't believe in that then you can't help yourself and thats not healthy, I can sit here and tell you to try and get help for yourself but thats not going to do you any good because in the end all that matters is YOU you are the only person who can help yourself and thats not a bad thing you may even learn a thing or two about yourself that you didn't know! Well anyway I just wanted to tell you that if you want to keep talking I hope we can because you seem like a genuine and kind heartwarming person and I would love to talk more with you and just share stuff with each other and if you feel like it won't help then we can stop it's all up to you remember what I said only YOU have the power :)! Okay well I think I rambled on for too long lol well have a nice night and anytime you need to talk to me please write me on here or write me on my email it's [email protected] okay? Well goodnight and take care

Susana 

Name: MistressMable | Date: May 7th, 2011 4:13 PM
oh my god i love you! I really need your support! I'm trying to recovery from anorexia but its so hard and half the time i feel like suicide is easier :( I really need your help! email me? [email protected] 

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