Hey guys my name is Susana I am 18 years old and I have been anorexic since about the age of 12 yes I know what you must be thinking i'm crazy that I started so young but truth be told I started young not because I was fat because I was very skinny actually but because I got bullied alot in elementary they used to tease me saying I was this fat fat cow ect.. and the stupid thing about it was that I actually believed them!!!! Yes I did and I feel stupid about it now but hey what can you do right? So I started to stop eating and excercise constantly but I mean to the point where I just passed out! years went by and I just got so used to it it felt almost normal like a daily routine, my parents didn't know because they aren't that keen to get to know there daughter, they know now but I had to tell them, okay so anyway I also started getting angry and sad for everything my mood changed sooo much I just hated it I would snap at anyone that was around I didn't care at all! I also started wearing baggy clothes and just getting very sick and to a point where I went to the hospital for stomach pain and the doctors diagnosed me with being anemic and that I Gerd disease! By then I wanted to stop because I was ruining my body and I was sooooooo skinny I was weighing about 92 pounds!!!! I hated myself and everything about me so I started realizing I needed to stop and more importantly I WANTED to stop! So I took drastic measures and told my parents and they just started crying and wanting me to get into therapy (of course) and so I guess it just is like step by step i've been taking it at a time! I also started eating better and not excercising as much! I am still to this day recovering and I feel a ton better than I did and I feel better about myself too! I still get occasional heartburn and the anemia has gotten less although my bones have gotten very brittle, I look at myself and the world differently and I appreciate that, now I am at a healthy weight of 110 pounds I know it's still not alot to go on with but like I said I am recovering it's hard to gain the weight back once you lost it the way I did!
Well anyway I just wanted to share my story and wanted to hear your guys's stories and maybe see if anyone of you needs advice or help that I could maybe give you or help you on because I would love to do that I did it for myself and I would love to help anyone in need of the same problem that I have/had so if you do please respond here or write me personally
Thanks for reading guys most appreciated
Susana ↓
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