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| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 17th, 2008 4:21 AM |
| Dear Ali, I was in your shoes, you are very close to being stuck on bulimia..I suggest you do something else when you get home from school-ANYTHING other than eat and vomit. You are getting hooked on the "high" of throwing up..Yes, i said it, high. The brain releases endorphins when you purge, that gives you that rush of feeling better...Pretty soon, you will have to do it every time you eat, your life will be centered around food..You will wake up and think of food, you'll lay down to sleep and think of all the food you wasted during your day..Believe me, I'm an expert..I have bulimia and have been struggling with it for going on eleven years now...I started when I was fifteen. Wanted to look thin, yadda yadda...Next thing I knew, it was an everyday thing..I couldn't stop..I wanted to control what was going in my body, but eventually, the disease started controling me..I didn't even see it coming..I suggest you talk to someone verry close in your life.. Try to get their support and help. Turn to that person and spill your guts. If I could go back I probably would want to get some help to change the awful habit that was forming. My problem was that I didn't have that special person to go to...No mom or dad, no best friend to talk to...I sure hope you have at least one of these in your life..Good luck and keep trying to stay away from the toilet!!!laters ↑ |
| Name: jess91 | Date: Jan 20th, 2008 9:38 PM |
| hey, im jess and im also 16. i read your buliten and thought i should write and tell you that, i know exactly what you are going through. i have had bulimia for the last 3 yrs and i have always managed to get over it. however 5 months ago i got really bad, and my parents found out. ever since then i have been on a downwards spiral and have to go and see phychologists and phychiartists weekly. my advice to you would be to go and see a nutritionist and get them to plan out a healthy meal plan which you must stick to. i know it sounds really hipercritical but i wish i'd done that earlier on as i now suffer from anorexia aswell and i feel trappped the whole time. but i did find, before the anorexia kicked in when i ate healthly i never felt the need the vomit as i wouldnt be full and i wouldnt have snacked so i didnt feel guilty so there was no need. also if you are close with a member of your family tell them, because it is soooo much easier with support from your family. i really hope that helps and that you dont go down the same road i have because, i feel depressed, lonely, isolated, i cant sleep and my mood swings are attrocious. i used to also be really socialble and now i barely ever go out as i have a fear of others finding out. good luck- i know it sounds odd as we are strangers but if you ever want to talk ill be here! xxx ↑ |
| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 22nd, 2008 3:58 AM |
| Dear Jess, This is in regards to your advice on going to a nutritionist, some people dont have the money to do that sort of thing. I know at 15, I didn't even have the guts to tell anyone. I wanted to keep it as secret as possible..It was to be my thing and no one elses. I know at your age the mood swings are a never ending battle and you just don't know why..well, they're normal and should go away with lots of time.My advice is to read lots of books- just get lost in them. I'm not talking about health-nut books, I'm talking about books of your interest, like murder/mystery or fantasy...I like Koontz and Stephen King and Tami Hoag...Reading was one of the few things I enjoyed while going through the rough teenage years and depression. Just take it one day at a time and try not to eat the trigger foods that make you wanna throw up. Good luck. Laters. ↑ |
| Name: Janine N. | Date: Jan 24th, 2008 5:21 AM |
| Dear Ali, Good for you for reaching out and asking for help!!! I applaud you for that. I, too, am 5'10" and weight about 140... and as a teenager weighed anywhere from 133 to far more. I was an exercise bulimic and I binged and purged throughout most of my high school years. I was very sad, lonely and lost. I was a cheerleader and had surface friends, but my home life was falling apart and filled with sadness. No matter how thin or how popular I was, I never felt good enough and certainly rarely felt happy. I ate to numb my feelings... I ate because I was bored or overwhelmed... I ate and I starved and obsessed on food and weight. SO, I relate to what you are going through and I promise you that you don't have to do it ALONE. Do you have parents that are supportive? If so, you might tell them what you have been going through and ask that they help you get a therapist (who works with eating disorders). Eating disorders are very serious and can hurt your health -- both physically and mentally. Getting help young like you are is great and you have a better chance of recovering from the eating disorder. I found Overeaters Anonymous (a 12 step program) (http://www.oa.org/index.htm) when I was 18 years old and I am now 39 and I have 19 years of abstaining from binging and purging. I am free from the compulsion to binge and purge. That program saved my life and gave me the life I always dreamed of. Once in recovery from the eating disorder, I went to UCLA and made great friends in OA and AA and I went on to do interesting work in the film business and did sculpting and tried sky diving and got married and had two daughters and most important -- OA helped me learn why I binged and purged, gave me people to love me and help me recover from the eating disorder and today I love who I am and my body. I relate to food like a normal eater. I am FREE from the obsession with food and how to get rid of the weight. It is lovely. I so wish for you to have peace with food and your body... and you can. Keep asking for the help... demand it. There is a better life than binging alone after school... I promise. Let me know if you have any questions or how I might be able to help you. Warm regards, Janine ↑ |
| Name: Janine N. | Date: Jan 24th, 2008 5:30 AM |
| Dear Jess (all of your girls), Please read what I wrote to Ali. It might help you as well. OA has teen groups. There is a lot of support and friendship there. My two best friends in the world are girls I met in OA 20 years ago. YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE LONELY AND ISOLATED... I promise you don't. The professional help like a Phyciatrist and Phycologists are wonderful, but I found great comfort and results by combinging OA with the mental health professionals. To all of you GIRLS... there is help out there. You are not alone. Seek it; fight for your life to get better. You are all precious and there are reasons for the eating disorders... hurts, divorces, alcoholic parents, incest, childhood trauma, etc... we overeat for all sorts of reasons. Find out why you eat and seek help to get better. YOU DESERVE IT. I am here if you need help or have questions. Sincerely, Janine Recovering Overeater, Mother of 2 daughters, Environmentalist ↑ |
| Name: Janine N. | Date: Jan 29th, 2008 6:49 AM |
| Ali, I am here to help if you want it. Let me know if you want my e-mail address. I keep checking back here to see if you saw my note to you. You are not alone. Warm regards, Janine ↑ |
