hi....... i dont want to feel out of place because i will tell you right now, i DONT have an eating disoreder, but i do want help. I'm use to everyone saying how skinny i am, and they still do, but i dont believe them anymore. I feel fat, but my mom says im not-everyone says im not. I'm so fed up with everyones opions, because they always say how stupid i am to think i'm fat. I havent weighed my self in a while because i'm afraid of what i'll find. So i just lie to people when they want to know my wieght-its none of their business anyway. I'm tall for my age, and getting taller. I'm afraid i'll get an eating disorder if i start dieting. Some days i WANT one, because it seems like an easy way to loose extra fat. I used to just be able to belive people, and believe that i'm skinny. I can pinch fat around my stuomach and it feels like a lot, my mom says if that wasnt theri than i would be stick skinny. I dont want an eating disorder, because i know what they do and they take over your life and you cant stop them, but i'm really confused. I usally dont eat breakfast, but last night i woke up STARVING at 2 in the morning, i stayed in bed until morning, still very hungry. I looked at food and i wasnt hungry anymore. I dont want to be turned off by food because i'm afraid that it will turn into an ed. Sometimes i think bulima is an easy way to loose extra pounds, but i have never thrown up food, and hopefully never will. I would go on a diet but i dont think i'm allowed, because im apperrently "skinny"
I dont know, im just really confused! ↓
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