im 14,and i live with my dad who is working everyday and every night.i have siblings,but they do not live with me.my parents just finalized a divovce,which was beyond horrible.my mom moved to idaho just this november.my dad doesn't exactly know what i need,or how to take care of me,because for 12 years of my life my mom always did,while he was at work.
anyways,my eating disorder [bulimia at that time]started in 7th grade,at the age of 12..i stopped a year later because people started to notice i went to the bathroom fequently and everytime i turned on the sink,because at that time i was living with others.
it just started agian recently,about two weeks ago.except im anorexic,i'd rather not eat.
last weekend my neice and i [13 years of age] were on the topic.because i had brought up that i want to see my hip bones&ribs.she asked me if i was bulimic,we're close,so i told her the truth.because i trust her.and i go to find out 3 seconds later,she was to.
i was shokcked& worried.i wanted to tell her not to be,but then i didn't want to be a hypacrite,,because i have an ED also.
so im stuck.
but today it's day three since i've eaten,and i feel like im going to pass out.im drinking lo-carb monster to take the hunger pains away,and chewing gum.
whateverr.fuck it? i guess.
to those who are reading i have a thearipist,it doesn't help me though.still give me your thoughts:]
i want this,bad. ↓
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