so do i have an eating disorder and if so is that such a bad thing? i know thats a bit of a stupid question but the way i feel and see it i don't have a problem, but lately its starting to take great effect on my marriage. i'm 5ft 6" and way 6 and half stone, i guess it started after my last year of college when i got married and moved away from home for the first time.
I used to be in such good shape as i was a swimmer and then a combination of things made my life spiral out of my own control. When i met my husband i was in to bad a shape but over the period of a year and a bit i gained to pounds having not swam and learning that i had diabeties. so when we decided to get married and move down south i decided i wanted to make the effort to lose the weight. I've always question why my husband is with me, as far as i see it he could do alot better than me, he's slim with an amazing body and is great looking and i just feel as though when i'm on his arm other people are thinking what the hell is he doing with that. So i started throwing up after every meal which then turned in to me eating less and less and now well i food makes me sick just looking at it or smelling it.
Yesterday he finally confronted me about it, saying that he had notice how i'm running my self in to the ground and how i've lost a tone of weight . That he's worried about me and he wants me to talk to a professional and gt some help seen as he can't. He cooked my favourite meal tonight and he watch me as i played with the food then made to throw it away saying that i was full. he wasn't having none of it.
He just doesn't understand how ugly and fat i feel, why is he not happy that i'm thinner? ↓
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