hi everyone
im trying real hard to end the misery of on and off bulimia that ive been living with over the last 2 years.
I just need sumone i can talk to for support.
I always thought i was a very strong person but i cant do this on my own i really cant. Every day i think i wont make myself sick then I cave in late at nite.
If anyone wants to chat or can help plz leave a message.
Thx
Lucie ↓
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| Name: Mary | Date: Sep 12th, 2006 10:11 PM |
| Hi Lucie, I'll help you. It will help me to talk to someone also...i have no idea how old this post is, but please let me know if I can help you. ↑ |
| Name: Mary | Date: Sep 13th, 2006 4:46 AM |
| my husband works nights, it gives me an excuse to binge, purge, and get away with it. he wonder's why i am always nice and showered up when i go to bed. i desperately need the help of a buddy too. ↑ |
| Name: suki | Date: Sep 13th, 2006 6:22 AM |
| sweetheart your message reminded me so much of myself my email adress is [email protected] please get in touch, its 3 years now for me and i need someone too. take care x ↑ |
| Name: lucie | Date: Sep 13th, 2006 6:55 AM |
Mary, looks like we am in the same boat. I have been binging in secret and have got away with it but deep down wishing my parents or someone would catch me so they could help me stop.
My mom caught me in the act a couple of years ago, she gave me a lecture on the health implications then nothing more was said. In the end our relationship got a bit distint but now its perfect and i dont want to spoil it. I would love to tell her or hint to her its back but I just cant, im jus not strong enough to ask for the help. ↑ |
| Name: anna987 | Date: Sep 14th, 2006 2:37 AM |
| I feel so similar. I want to stop, be healthy, but for some reason... I always think I am strong enought to stop also, every time is the last, but no... my mom just found out that it is still going on, (its been about a year) I'm hoping that that will help me stop. ↑ |
| Name: Mary | Date: Sep 14th, 2006 4:59 AM |
| Lucie, I understand. But i have to tell you something...I bet your mother already knows...or has an idea...when I got really sick and hospitalized...my family said they already knew...i thought it was my secret....i didn't know whether to be pissed that they knew or pissed that they knew and didn't do anything. you need to trust and forgive yourself. ↑ |
| Name: Seattle87 | Date: Sep 14th, 2006 7:13 AM |
lucie, i am in your EXACT situation. I know what you are going through. It is always late at night, and I always say to myself "okay that was the last time"....
If you want to talk about it, please Email me [email protected] ↑ |
| Name: Seattle87 | Date: Sep 14th, 2006 7:15 AM |
| Name: lucie | Date: Sep 14th, 2006 8:44 AM |
well we should all make a pact to stop! ive been saying 4 a year to myself, 'yeah thats the last time' but it still goes on. We just need to realise why we do it and what would help us stop.
As everyone says, an ED is about control.
I am starting to work out why mine has come back and i beleive its cus my lifes abit kaotic at the moment.
I used to have the best social life with my friends men, and family. But to identify the cause I beleive its work related.
Here's the problem;
Ive been working 35hours overtime each month lately on top of going to the gym and visiting my sick Aunty.
And the result;
Me binging and purging so I have some control over my life.
And to stop this?;
I need help and support.
Whats everyone reckon??
Lucie
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| Name: anna987 | Date: Sep 15th, 2006 3:53 AM |
| My parents confronted me about it last night. They already had problably five months ago, thinking I would stop, but obviously not. My dad is not they huggy, senstive, fatherly figure type, so this experience was very amazing. He guessed how long I've been doing it! I never though he paid that much attention! He made me promise I wouldn't anymore, so I don't have a choice. I think its over, and I have such a sense of freedom! The binging and purging, late nights... has been controling my life! For me I think I need to be held accountable, and to see someone care about me so much, my dad, who I thought didn't. His wisdom blew me away! We have been slaves to this! I really want to go eat a big cinnamon roll sitting in the kitchen, and other things.. but I just can't anymore. Too much of my life has been wasted. ↑ |
| Name: aimee | Date: Sep 15th, 2006 9:49 PM |
hey,
it's so nice to finally talk to someone who actually experiences the same thoughts and emotions that i go through every day. I have been struggling with bulimia for about a year and a half and all i ever wanted was someone i can go to who actually knows where i am coming from..just a shoulder to lean on in this matter will do so much more than any amount of therapy ↑ |
| Name: KayKay | Date: Sep 16th, 2006 5:49 PM |
| You need to find something else to do at night! Maybe have some kind of hobby! Do Scrapbookingk, reading, anything! That is the only way! You have to replace that time you have to binge and purge with something else!!!!! For me I couldn't be by myself when my husband wasn't at home. I would always be with my neighbor or somewhere but home! You have to find your weaknesses, and replace them with something else!!! Because it completely changes your cycle!!! If you have any questions please let me know! ↑ |
| Name: aimee | Date: Sep 16th, 2006 6:37 PM |
i've tried every hobby in the book and everything refers back to purging..the only thing i've found helps me is writing..however i end up writing vomit over 100 times in a journal
please help ↑ |
| Name: brokenxsoul | Date: Sep 17th, 2006 2:13 AM |
| Hey hun, your message I can totally relate to. I have been suffering with builimia for the past 4 years, and it deffiantly hasn't been an easy road. I recently was discovered 2 months ago and now am forced into recovery, and its a tough road. I'm doing horrible and would really like to have someone to talk to also! If your interest let me know.. we can help each other =] ↑ |
| Name: Grace | Date: Sep 17th, 2006 7:58 PM |
Hi Lucie
My name is Grace and I am 19. I've been Bulimic, on and off for 2 years also. i've tried really hard to stop but it is so difficult and i feel so guilty for eating too much that the only way i can get to sleep is to get rid of it all.. I can't believe that someone like me could suffer from such a disease.. i have an amazing family and lots of good friends and feel really lucky.. however i feel as though i let them down wit this and if not this then my weight... I am actually at my wits end and i hate myself for not being able to get over it!
I dont think i can really help you, but i kinda just want to know that i am not alone in this and be able to talk to someone who's been through the same thing...i feel like such a fool.
its so hard to deal with the shame and guilt.
if u feel like a chat any time my email add is [email protected].
thanx
grace ↑ |
| Name: aimee | Date: Sep 18th, 2006 2:11 AM |
| It's getting so much harder to hide this..my parents are following me around constantly it's getting to the point where I can only vomit in the shower where I can truly be alone. I've been living with this shame for so many years..i just want it all to go away. Im searching for comfort in such a hurtful thing..it's strange to know that the one thing that makes me feel so much better is the same thing that is killing me on the inside ↑ |
| Name: anna987 | Date: Sep 19th, 2006 2:22 PM |
| Grace, my age and time is the same as yours. why do we all have this? What is the root? If we knew, would that even help? Is it about weight for any of you? or just control? I wish I could be a child and be innocent again, eating normally, this type of self abuse never occuring to me. ↑ |
| Name: lovelyjess | Date: Sep 19th, 2006 3:52 PM |
Hi Lucie,
I know exactly how you feel. I don't know what to do either. I really need someone to talk to and help me. I don't know what to do about this. My email is [email protected]. just email me sometime it would mean a lot. Thanks and good luck ↑ |
| Name: anna987 | Date: Sep 21st, 2006 2:01 AM |
| why don't we make a pact? maybe, starting 10/1? (allowing a few days for everyone to have a chance to read this message and 'join' the pact. anyone? I'm not necessarily expecting we can completely quit, but maybe we can see who goes the longest without purging, and they can offer insight as to what specific things they did to avoid it? Maybe we could cut back, to once a week. then once every two weeks, then once a month... what does everyone think?? Anything, we just HAVE to stop!! ↑ |
| Name: aimee | Date: Sep 21st, 2006 11:19 PM |
| the pact idea sounds great...having some other people to help me through will help so much more than going at it alone ↑ |
| Name: brokenxsoul | Date: Sep 23rd, 2006 4:46 PM |
| Hey, I've been suffering from bulimia also for the past 4 years. It is very hard to go through this alone. I can say I feel the exact same way you do. I've been in recovery since June, and I'm finding myself still falling to my old ways if you want to talk just to talk my email is [email protected] or my aim screename iixsexiibabexii.. ↑ |
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