Hi my name is christina. im 18 and I was pregnant not to long ago, about may. I had graduated highschool (2009) and found out when i was 9 weeks. The baby didnt make it, i ended up having a miscarriage that went bad and ended up in the hosptial. I know that i am to young to want to have a child but i never intended to and never wanted to, i was on birth control for 2 almost 3 years and it never failed.
When i got out of the hosptial i was determined to get back on BC, but the loss of the baby hurt me extremely bad. I know that im 18, living at home, with no job and practically no life..........im not sure how to explain how i feel but my baby gave me a reason to want to better myself because i wanted to be all that i could be for him/her. It hurt but i had already sceduled a date for a new pack of BC.
Since they had to do another pap smear i had to wait a few months to be fit "in". I went in yesterday and was told im pregnant.....my thoughts honestly and truly were...............What? how so soon? wtf? I cant tell my parents this again? I have to leave home somehow now...
My parents thoughts when i first got pregnant (when i lost the baby were), that i was a whore, a slut, (im only with one guy), i need to get an abortion, im not wanted, i need to leave, im not doing no good being there. And this was mostly coming from my mom. She has had alot of abortions and has 4 kids. My step dad was disspointed and never talked to me.
Idk what to do. I graduated i had good grades but not perfect. like a 3.4 average. i have no job and have applied everywhere, my boyfriend is 17 a year younger, idk what to do. but i have to earn my life in this house especially with a baby.
I have looked into a lot of things to try and give my parents money some how just to stop saying hurtful things to me. i looked into after having the baby. Donating eggs. And giving my dad the 6000 dollars. all of it and then doing it again maybe to pay for expenses towards my baby. The way i think is crazy i honestly need someone to talk to. and share my thoughts with. Please help. I dont consider myself having a bad life but around my house i get called all the names in the book by my dad. My mom has no relation to the kids. I have a 3yr old sister. My step dad lost his job when the recession hit so hes going around trying to find work. which makes it harder. Please anyone with advice. My email is christinacooper17@yahoo.com
PleaseHelp, or advice would help
I dnt want to lose my baby, and im willing to do anything not to, but with the way the economy is going what am i to do. All i have is a highschool diploma and no job ↓
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