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Name: Amy579
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I have been raising my daughter basicly on my own now for 8 years. I have only ever received $1500 in child support for her and it has been an hour by hour struggle to survive and at the same time maintain some sort of "normal-acie" for my daughter, i have done a pretty good job, but it is very, very hard and nobody seems to see or appriciate how much i do to keep things ticking over. About 18 months ago i met, i believed to be the "man of my dreams" I fell in love hard and was sure we would all live happily ever after, everything seemed perfect, we planned a baby and "the man of my dreams" really pushed for it, i was certain we were doing the right thing, we had even started looking into fertility centres in case we need'd some help, after a year of trying and about a week after getting a referal to a fertility specialist i was thrilled to have a positive pregnancy test............this is where it all went wrong...... I am now 15 weeks pregnant and "the man of my dreams" has left me. Since being about 6 weeks pregnant he has left and come back 3 or 4 times, there are varying reasons each time, but a lot of it boils down to the fact that me, our baby and my daughter are very low in his priority list and his mother, father, sister and niece and nephew come first. Our baby is his first and he is 35, he wanted it so much, i am in total shock about how things are unfolding. At this stage i feel as though it is over (the relationship) and i am in damage controll trying to keep my daughter's life as stable as possible, and wrap my head around what has happened and what i am about to face, i am facing extreme poverty, and am very isolated in a sense as i have no real help from immediate family, i am currently not working and am surviving on a small income, it is literally just enough to pay the rent each week. I know deep down inside somewhere that i can do this, as hard as i know it will be, but the surface me, today is panicked (!) HOW ON EARTH AM I GOING TO GIVE BIRTH, TAKE CARE OF A NEWBORN, AN 8 YEAR OLD, MYSELF, THE HOUSE, AND WORRY ABOUT ALL THE FINANCIAL ISSUES ALL ALONE????? Anybody, please give me something to get me thru, i never imagined i would be a single mother of TWO children to TWO different men, i feel like a fool, and my heart is brocken, but i dont even have time to wallow in self pity, and give myself the care i need, as i said i am in damage control....Any advice would be much appriciated.
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