IS HARD for me , am having a 2nd child, and going through emotions, scared and worry it would happend again.
am6 months pregnant
my son is 7 the little love of my life born with a lot of difficulties cerebral phalsy and low muscle tone. worked so hard to survive and for me see him happy and keep him active with his therapies, is my joy but when I found out I was pregnant still feel in shock, is so hard to explain t some people, how scared I am.
fear of depression and doubts. is like keeping a baby for 7 year, and having one that actually is going to talk to you back, instead of (me) listening to my own voice, asking question to Ian and answered myself. kinda funny sometimes. even when I hold some else child am so gentle and they are big!, but is the only thing I know. afraid of not letting him do the new things, or the time to share, my husband does not understand and is hard for me to talk about it.
sad because the 18 hour of labor with my 1rst child I can't remember a thing due to the over medication the gave by mistake, imagine that!!! a nurse forgot to sign. and a new nurse gave me the same dose, sending me straight to comma. for a short time and still when i had him could not remember things.
is hard is anybody have a situation like mine, please advise me what to do. am due on July, and still afraid to go and shop for the new baby for clothes or crib, or anything related to my baby is hard. ↓
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