In aug of 06 i was raped by my aunts husbands nephew.& about two months later around early
november i started cutting my wrist,I had the kids screen name so one day i was online & i I.M him and i asked him why he did it to me & he said becuase he like me.I said cause you like me that gave you a reason to rape me? he said yeah you did'nt want to do it so i had to force you,That day i printed that i.m out i broght it to my guidance counselor at school "she is the only one that i can really talk to" so i gave it to her she had to tell are principal later on in the school day i was called down to the office & there were two cops waiting for me the wanted to know if i wanted to press charges i said yes.but then when the told me that i had to go into details of exactly what happedned i could'nt do it anymore from this day i have it in me of what he did to me & from this day i've been still cutting up my wrist with over 30 scars on my wrist,my mom thought that i stoped & she's been forcing me to wear short sleeves but when i wear it i have to put cover up on it & try not to move my arm& im just really terrified.i have had 3 suicide attempts in the past 4months and was'nt succesful in neither of them i just really cant deal with it anymore.
Im asking for your help please. ↓
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| Name: irish Amy | Date: Sep 4th, 2007 7:42 PM |
| Regina, how long ago did this happen? do you still have time to go back to the police? maybe you should ask your guidence councillor to put you in touch with someone who can help you you more than likely need councilling for the rape and the self harming, talk to your mum again, you need help honey, my heart goes out to you (((((((((((hugs)))))))))) ↑ |
| Name: amen | Date: Sep 5th, 2007 6:41 AM |
| Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I'm not sure how old you are but I too was raped when I was about 9 by my moms bestfriend's 13 yr old son. I was so scared and tormented by flash backs. I kept silent and only thought of telling when it came about that he had also raped my younger then 7 yr old sister and my 8 yr old brother. I felt like people would see me differently if they knew and feared the outcome. I quickly fell into depression and attempted suicide at age 12. I took all precautions so that no one would ever be interested in me or think I was pretty. I ate coffee grounds to stay awake so that I would not dream. I thought I had it all under control. Then an older neighbor man attempted to rape me, I ran and cocooned again in my home. My sister refused to believe it and was raped by him. I watched the first guy go on with his life and later get married and have kids. I was angry for a long time because I was still tormented by his presence within me. But I finally sat down with God, I mean really sat down with God. I found myself spending more and more time in church and in deep prayer and discussion with God . He healed me of my wounds and he carried my burdens for me and will do the same for you. He loves you sweetie and he has great plans for you. Please don't allow this person to stand in the way of what God has in store for you. Let him tend to this person and you keep your eyes on the Lord, he has his eyes on you. I regret the time I allowed to be stolen from me. Don't allow this person to continue to take from you. Talk to someone. God loves you honey. ↑ |
| Name: autumn_leaves | Date: Oct 12th, 2007 5:41 AM |
| Wow, I can't even pretend to know ow u feel. But cutting youself won't solve ur issues. You need to see a counselor and talk these real things out. ↑ |
| Name: Siren | Date: Nov 3rd, 2007 3:47 AM |
HI Regena
I understand your situation ive been there but with my fathers uncle, a family friend and another that is still unknown. I admire your courage to have told someone, I understand your pain your fears. I had to go into details when i was seeing a counselor for this and he really had me worried cuz he was male and was drugging me up so bad i stop seeing him. This is something that will weigh on you for the rest of your life hun. The first is to learn to accept the fact that it happen and second to never ever blame yourself. I would say go ahead press those charges i wish i could but cant because they are now passed on. Make it aware of exactly what kind of man he is. Utilize this to help others. I know you cut yourself but that isnt the answer hun. If you want to talk to me more plz email me hun. then we can get into a good conversation
here is my email [email protected] ↑ |
| Name: MAX PAYNE | Date: Dec 9th, 2007 10:58 AM |
| Wow this is horrible. PLEASE DON'T KILL YOURSELF! GOD WON'T FORGIVE YOU FOR THAT! IF HE EVER TRIED AGAIN, MAKE SURE YOU LEAVE HIM PENISLESS! CUT IT OFF! THE CUT IT IN HALF!!! THEN ASK FOR FORGIVENESS. BUT PLEASE DON'T KILL YOURSELF! ↑ |
| Name: Tracy | Date: Jul 17th, 2009 2:54 AM |
Regina,
I'm so sorry about what happen to you. I realize your probably going through alot of pain. There is someone who can heal your pain and that is God. Honey, he is a great person and if you just ask him he will relieve you of your pain and show you that life is a very perious thing. My brother killed himself and he was sixteen years old and i would love if he would just of found god to heal his pain.. And still be here bc i would love to be hanging out with him right now... ↑ |
| Name: Mac kin | Date: Sep 9th, 2009 2:46 AM |
| i tryed to kill self and i still want to but sometimes death is not the right answer and cuting your self just makes u a pussy becuse u hide pain ↑ |
| Name: rana | Date: Feb 28th, 2010 2:48 AM |
| Name: j | Date: Jun 28th, 2010 12:15 PM |
hmm... maby his deth could calm you down?
if youl eliminte the threat, maby pains will go away? ↑ |
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