I never asked for all this...and Im not exactly happy about it...
I really didnt ask for a baby and I certainly didnt ask to be a single mum.I am sick of not getting enough sleep and having to pump every 3 hours.Im sick of not being able to just do whatever,sometimes I just want to go get drunk and forget all this for a night....Im sick of having no job and no place (staying at mum and dads) Im sick of not having money to spend on me,DAMN diapers are expensive(thinking about moving to Africa so we dont need clothes or diapers lol),my life revolves around her,her doctors appts several times a week,her special needs,holding her and making sure she is happy and her needs are met.everything is all about her,I TOTALLY love her with my whole heart but it is tough.Also Im still dealing with her dad ( my ex-fiance)....another story in itself.He keeps begging to see her but Im not ready for that cause Im still sooo effin pissed with him I will prolly kill him or his loony fat ass bitch girlfriend..I guess Im just pissed at him and life because it isnt supposed to be this way,and I wish to god he would just disappear or get run over by a train or something....Or maybe those cowboys should've shot all them damn indians way back in the day....lol ↓
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| Name: zoey9810 | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 6:57 PM |
is he giving you any money for daisy??
Im sorry your having a rough time, why dont you apply for WIC they give you free stuff like milk eggs cheese formula cereal, juice
and even if you dont use the formula still request it and sell it on e-bay! ↑ |
| Name: question | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 7:08 PM |
we have a WIC appointment in about an hour and a half...lol
hell no he isnt giving anything for her...never has never will ↑ |
| Name: ..RoSey.. | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 7:18 PM |
question if you dont want to let him see her.. then DONT.
He was NOT there thru the pregnancy.. he wanted NOTHING to do with her.. he has already thrown his chance out the window.
who the hell does he think he is running back ??
Screw him..
Anyone can be a Father.. but it takes a GREAT man to be a DAD.. and by the sounds of it.. he dosnt cut it. ↑ |
| Name: Daisy-UK | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 7:32 PM |
I'm sorry you're feeling this way, perhaps you should seek professional guidence as you are in a unique situation.
We do get tired with new babies and it can be harder when you're single, trust me, I've been there. However some of your feelings seem harsh and I know you don't mean all of it because I know you're not selfish. Your baby depends on you and all you do for her and her needs come first. Talk to someone, it sounds as though you are at risk for ppd.
God bless sweetie, this little girl has been give to you as a gift. ↑ |
| Name: zoey9810 | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 7:47 PM |
Sal, its ok to feel the way you do, its normal given that this was not a planned pregnancy, and it was not the right person, i have had plenty of days like this, for me chris is the right person, but the timing for Tyler wasnt right, did we make it right, yes we did, and we took control of the situation, just like you have, dont worry it gets alot better and i know that you will find the right daddy, it just takes time.
would your parents watch daisy for a few times a week so that you can work and start to save money??
ohh and do you need diapers??? what size???? ↑ |
| Name: Opheiliamath | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 8:51 PM |
Sorry your feeling this way Sal. Hopefully your day will get better.
Update about the WIC appt. WIC helps tons, let me tell you.
Lauren thats a REALLY good idea, get the formula and sell it on e-bay. I wouldn't have thought about that! ↑ |
| Name: zoey9810 | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 9:00 PM |
LOL thats what i do, MUHAHAHAH
some one got on me last time saying that i can get in trouble for it though.. .
ohh well! ↑ |
| Name: Opheiliamath | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 9:05 PM |
| You could only get in trouble if someone tells but yea, whatevea...how much do you sell them for? ↑ |
| Name: Opheiliamath | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 9:06 PM |
Actually don't answer here, i'll send you a myspace mess.
Do you have AIM or Yahoo! ↑ |
| Name: jillw | Date: Sep 27th, 2007 9:21 PM |
wow I am sorry that you are feeling crappy.
I am not trying to be a bitch, but what exactally did you expect being a mom to be like? Sure it is harder because she is special needs right now, but no sleep, being broke, having no real fun, being selfless...etc...... that is motherhood and honestly if you are not ready to do that for the rest of your life then you should think about adoption.
Maybe you are jsut going through a tuff time and it will pass, but if it doesn't please keep in mind that as much a "you didn't ask for this" she didn't ask for it more! Life throws curve balls and sometimes it feels like you will never recover, but you will. It may not be what you "want" but it will be what you can handle.
I will keep you guys in my prayers and I really do hope that you find the best solution for both of you. ↑ |
| Name: lacirrom | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 1:01 AM |
| sal-i totally understand where you are coming from! i am seriously considering leaving my husband because of some pretty bad stuff he's been doing and that will leave me a single mom of 3 kids ages 3 and under! and last night as i layed in my bed crying all i could think of was i didn't ask for this! this is not what my life was suposed to be! i was never supposed to be a single mom...much less of three kids! now i'm going to end up being alone for the rest of my life! but you know what? life is what it is and we have to make the best out of what's given us. atleast thats what i'm telling myself lol ↑ |
| Name: zoey9810 | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 1:20 AM |
| LOL i sell them fstarting of at $20 and they go up to like $75 and 15 for shipping so i get $75 out of them ↑ |
| Name: FatallyYours | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 1:23 AM |
| im with jill. we all care about you. and i can to a certain degree understand everything you're going through. i had to play single mommy for 5 months, i had to sit in the hospital with him for a week and a half. its tough. but the reality of it is. as much as we didnt want this life, we wanted the partying 24/7 and the sleeping whenever, we didnt choose to abort. we made the decision. ↑ |
| Name: NIKKIS | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 3:36 AM |
| i am a single mom. i am with brooke 24 hours a day, i live with my parents, my whole paycheck goes to brooke, i never get a break. but you know what i dont want one. no this isnt the path i choose, instead it choose me. but i love it. im sorry sal, and you know i love you, but you need to suck it up. you are a mom now, life will never be all about you. yeah its hard being alone, but you can make it work. i do. ↑ |
| Name: Opheiliamath | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 5:26 PM |
-BUMPROO-
How did the WIC appt go? ↑ |
| Name: zoey9810 | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 5:52 PM |
| good question i wanna know too ↑ |
| Name: Daisy-UK | Date: Sep 28th, 2007 7:50 PM |
Sal, I hope you're not refering to me when you say mental help. I know I suggested professional guidance, but in no way does that imply that you have a mental problem. I feel that you are in a situation that most people won't ever experience, plus with having a new baby and the stress of almost losing her, it's easy to become affected by post part. dep. It's so common nowadays because it is true and genuine and it's about time it's more recognized so that we can get the help we need.
You can't do this on your own and my words here are genuine and not meant to be cruel or rude. ↑ |
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