well hi,
i have never done anything like this before but i feel like i need to talk to people who are going through the same thing as me.
Right now i dont actually have a eating disorder, but i have considered starving myself and have finally started too, for the past 2 days i have just been drinking water and eating no food. i have never been happy with my weight, and as im short it makes me feel even fatter.
i am lucky to have good friends and a lovely boyfriend, but i dont wnt to tell them cause i know they will worry and to be honest i have only just began starving myself so i dont want to be stopped.
I guess im so sick of feeling this insecure that iv finally started to do something about it, but im getting worried that im pushing away my boyfriend, his starting saying how im becoming quiet and stuff and even just his kissing or hugging me i just pull away i dont want to be near anyone.
iv also self harmed quite a few times.
i just need someone to talk to, without being judged. =[
thanks. ↓
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