|hey so wat r u saying you hate it i dont know wat you mean my aunt had 5 kidney transplants in like 20 years a lung transplant and 2 heart transplants and she had to have a room be 85 degrees at all times becuz she was skinny and had no fat she died at 44 ↑|
|your aboslutely right.|
i think myself and other people here feel that if your a size 2 you will be so much happier in general. but you cant just stop being anorexic, its a mental disease. i wish i could stop wishing to be something else and except myself as who i am ↑
|Yeah its about control i think.. its horrible.. i feel fat so i wont eat for days and ill overexcersize to the point were i faint.. and then i think i wont do it because its stupid.. but then i WILL do it the next day.. without even thinking twice|
Its horrible.. and yea i wish id NEVER started because now i dont think i would ever be able to stop ↑
|I absolutely agree with you- when I started with my anorexia 4 years ago, I also thought that it would bring me happiness and that once I lost weight, my life would be perfect. Well, how wrong was I thinking that- I was down to 33kg (72 pounds), at death's door and STILL not happy. Actually, I'm more happy now that I've gained about 19 pounds. |
The points is, losing weight is NOT the way to happiness and a perfect life. There is no such thing. It's rather about creating happiness in evey day and trying to see the beauty of each moment.
I know it sounds very latida and as if I've discovered THE ANSWER, but this is how I've experienced things through the course of my progress of recovery. ↑