HEY IT IS ASHLEA88 NO ONE SEEMS TO WANT TO HELP ME AND GIVE ME ADVICE BUT I OFFER SO MUCH TOO PPL...well i am really relapsing i thought it would not be possible after i got up so high in weight and now ia m right back down.. i was 106 and i have dropped to 95.4 pounds and i am struggling to eat, i hate food and i am turned off when i see it, as well as wanting to go back to my 79 pounds again... can someone please offer me some advice on how to help myself.. i need it,,, please..
thanks
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Hi!
I'm sorry i couldn't answer your other post.
I dont know if you really want my help, as i dont HAVE an eating disorder, but i do know quite a bit about them. Anyway, dont be upset by your relapse, many people have them. You might hear those stories that people just stopped and that was it. I know it's hard but atleast your trying to stop. Thats the 1st step. The 2nd step is to EAT. Now i KNOW thats really hard for you, but you have to. Seeing how you gained wieght you know that you struggle to force yourself to eat. I'm really sorry that i have no suggestions on HOW to eat, because like i said i dont have an eating disoreder, i have studied them, but of course a book is a book, but a personal experience is a lot more help. People can give you suggestion after suggestion, but remember in the end it's you that has to be able to say,"i'm going to eat." Of course like i said way way way harder than that! I wish you good luck!
I'm praying for you, and i hope someone is able to help you move than me, but i tried. My daughter says that she's praying for you too! So oyu have the support, now you need the strenghth. ↑ |
thank you and that was a lot of help.. and thank you to your daughter.. that is really sweet of you two.. thanks thanks thanks.. i really apprieciate it.. i am tryin it is hard to force myself to eat though cause i feel so turned off by food that it is not funny.. i try to but it is like one bite and i am so full.. i am just loosing site of wanting to get better cause it is so hard to get there.. thanks for everything...
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Just keep telling yourself i need to do this or i cant make it. Of course you knolw that an ed is phycoligical...so try telling yourself one bite at time ↑ |
How are you doing today? My last comment i didnt have time to finish. What i was going to say was to tell yourself one bite then after that one bite tell yourself that wasnt so bad...one more and so on until you finish what ever it is. Then rest and tell yourself IM HUNGRY then try it again, it might not always work, but it might work sometimes. GOOD LUCK!!! ↑ |
thank you i am doing ok.. i did something that i am not allowed to do in my books i went and had pizza from pizza pizza today with my 12 year old sister and my bf.. i was so guilty after that it was not funny at all.. my mood is not that great my mom said some really hurtful things in a text message about me to my bf... so that was hard... thank you to you and your daughter for all your support...
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ok sorry i must have missed something......... did your mom push you to be skinny and THAT's why your anerexic? So she STILL thinks your overweight? if thats true than.....wow. I'm so sorry. Well, atleast your eating. What do you mean "not in your book?" Your mom shouldn't be telling your bf anything bad about you! Was it about your eating pizza? Well, sorry but she needs to get over it. I know she's your mom but thats just mean. I guess she doesnt relize what your going through. Anyway, we're here for you!! Keep up the good work! :] ↑ |
hey thank you so much.. it is a complicated story.. see when i was three i was taken from my biological mother and put in a foster home they were the ones that started me on it i was fivev one and a half and i was 132 pounds they thought i was too fat and smacked me and stuff.. well i was moved outta there and put into group homes and it got worse from there.. about two years ago my biological mother found me and she is helping me from time to time... my bf sets me back a lot cause of some of his comments i get to a good weight and he says comments like "wow your getting too much junk in your trunk" and stuff like that... in my books means that i am not allowing myself to have that type of food due to the amount od calories in it.. so tht is wht it means/.... thank you so much...
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hey! i am so sorry! i would write more, but i'm out of state, and i'll be bac in about 10 days. I can comment then!! ↑ |
you need to know whats best for you!! do you want to die? if not solution=food!! i know its hard..ive been suffering for 5 years now...but the lowest i was at was 78 pounds...and im now up to 89 pounds!! its really hard for me to face with with my eyes open so prehaps try blindfolding yourself before you even see the food then you wont know how many calories to count because you cant see them! try not to smell the food and guess because your soul purpose is to get better!! good luck!! ↑ |
heya babe,
email me. =]
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ask your doctor for zyprexa,it will give you your appetite back and help with depressive symptoms,as least it's wotrth a try ↑ |
hey ala4 i am already on a med for that... it is called doneparadone.. thanks sweety..
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