lucie Hunny You havnt failed you sound like your going through a rough tiem at the moment which is enough to make anyone make themselves sick u got to be strong u know where i am if you need me xxxxxxx ↑ |
thanks lyns. Ally was a mate i used to talk to on here but she hasn't got access to a computer at the mo and we text but as you know a text is not half as good as an email or whatever to explain yourself.
She helped me get through a bad time with bulimia and i was being strong for the both of us.
Im sorry to ramble on lynns but i have a heart condition now arythmia! now how do i know that I have not brought this on by making myself sick?!!?!?
i keep collapsing and fainting about twice a week and im really scared.
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Hi Hunny
well first you need to talk to your doctor to make sure you haven't brought it on yourself as this is adding to your worrying, once you know you can then build on this.
at the moment you sound as though your going round in circles how are you for just eating small amounts say 3 times a day do you think this would help you keep it down ?
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well i am eating cereal for brekkie a jacket potatoe with chicken and salad for lunch and a salad 4 my dinner. I alos snack on fruit all day.
I have just slipped up once and now i am scared i am going back to my old ways :-( ↑ |
i am not going to the gym tonight instead i am going to the supermarket and doing the usual routine.
buying carrots to eat first then binging on chocolate cakes cream and anything, then i am going to make myself sick until i can see the carrots so i know i have got all the bad out.
im sooooo sorry i have let evryone down
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i feel so sorry for you, hey why not try just to have what your meal are they are sooooo perfect can i come for tea! lol i wonder how you would feel without the cakes n that and then being sick, i know its going to be soo hard but even for just one day without doing it you may feel so happy Worth yourself what do you reckon?
today Ive had 2 tables spoons of porridge for breakfast lunch was 1 rivita with 3 slices of cucumber and very low fat yog and tea was small bowel or fruit n fibre a small pair. I'm not hungry, you are not failing everyone at all you are helping folk on here and helping yourself by being honest xxxxxxxxxx ↑ |
lucie
Please let me know that you are OK when you get back from shops xxxxxxx ↑ |
hi lyns.
well i did it and yeah i felt crap but it was my control. ↑ |