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Name: kay.
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I'm 17 years old and I just don't know what to do anymore. My sister is 16, she knows about what I do, and since she's seen evidence of food in the toilet she's began purging too.

I feel at fault, but for me it's not even about purging. Anything i eat, i'll eat until i'm way too full and i'll feel so disguisted with myself i will just throw up automatically. It's almost like the best feeling ever.

I've done this since I was in grade seven, the first time was when i drank rotten milk by mistake - i made myself throw up. I realized since then how easy it felt.. and it just progressed.

this really sucks, but my parents found out about my sisters bulimia, and are getting her to go see help. I don't think i want it, i mean i've given my parents many hints about the fact that i make myself throw up, or used to.. but they seem to push it away as if i'm the more reasonable child, i'll get over it.

i guess my sisters past with drugs and men etc; really gave my dad no reason to worry that i was actually bulimic. I don't want to tell them, and i don't know how to get help. I'm going to try really hard to stop. i need to.

I just felt like sharing this, it makes me feel better to just express it somehow rather than keep it to myself. I really hope others can stop too, because it's not a great thing. It doesn't make you a lot thinner, it doesn't work like you would think it does. You're just hurting yourself. I need to apply that to myself and realize how stupid i'm being. i think it's deeper than that though.
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