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Name: Marina
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I'm 18 and have had anorexia for the last round bout 8 months. I can't say how badly I need people to talk to and encourage me each day not to slip and binge because I have severe Depression and when I find i eat over whats fine for me for a day I just feel so 'shit'. I'm fine with the whole losing weigth thing and I'm not going to stop so if you're one of these people who's reading this and who wants me to get help it's no use replying,Sorry. Please if you need a encouraging freind to talk to please reply because I really do.
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Name: deja vu18 | Date: Jan 12th, 2007 7:03 PM
Listen honey, I know what you 're going through. I have the exact same problem and I am also 18. I don't really know what to do either. My mom doesn't understand how I can't control it. She thinks that it is a faze. Honestly I don't think bulimia is a faze. I've had an ED for at least four years now and I don't know how to get rid of it. The important thing is that you have people to talk to. You can always talk to me, I will try to help you the best I can. Maybe you could give me your msn and we could talk more about it. By the way, are you Croatian or Serbian? I'm from bosnia. 

Name: Kathi1804 | Date: Jan 12th, 2007 7:39 PM
I know how you two feel. I feel the same way. I started out not eating a lot a year ago and after that I began to binge. About half a year ago I started to throw up. Today, I don't at least I try not to... but I'm still binging every single day. I don't know how to stop. I just can't. I want to so bad, and every evening I tell myself tomorrow, you won't. But than... the next day - everything is fine until I get home from school. The moment I enter I know I have to eat whatever I can find. Gosh I hate it!
My parents know about it, and they really want to help, but they make it even worse. My parents also thing it's just a faze. but I know it isn't! The just always say: gosh how stupid are these girls nowadays... - I know it is stupid, and I would stop binging if I could, but it's not that easy!
@ Martina: I can understand, that you don't want to give it up. I really can. My biggest wish is to be able to eat normal - but I know right now I can't, so my second biggest wish is to go back to be anorexic instead of binging all the time and hating myself that much.
I would love to keep in touch - it's always good to have somebody to talk to how understands what you are going through!
Take care, both of you!
Best wishes Kathi [email protected] 

Name: deja vu18 | Date: Jan 12th, 2007 7:50 PM
Kathi1804, have you started to ignore your friends? I do that all the time, even though I know how much they love me and wish me all the best, but I just can't help it. I feel so disgusting and I feel like I don't deserve to talk to them. My friend is always asking me to go swimming and stuff, but that's the last thing I want to do. I haven't gone out with any of my friends in ages and every time I have to go out somewhere, I just can't wait to come back home and eat. I think you are right about anorexia. Anything is better then this. It is killing me. 

Name: Kathi1804 | Date: Jan 13th, 2007 8:42 AM
Dear deja vu18,

ja! I'm the same way. My friends are always asking me out, but I alway lie and find some excuses, so I don't have to go... I would love to go with them, but I just can't ... I always feel so unconfortable... I mean, it's hard to present youself in front of others, if you are out of tune with your body. Do you know what I mean?
But I know, that's exactly the wrong way of getting out of this circle... Not going arround means being arroud food and that means binging:(
I hate it.
If you'd be here we could spend time together talk and do whatever we'd like - just us and without food!
Most of my friends know about it, but they can't identify with it, and that's a good thing for them, but I also know that's why they'll never comnpletely understand me.And the worst thing is, even though it's mean - I get jealous - most of my friends are thin and pretty goodlooking and they can eat whatever they'd like and don't gain any weight - I know that's mean and I would never ever say it loud... I'm not overweight, no, but I don't feel comfortable the way I am right now, but as soon as I loose weight - people start talking and as soon as I gain weight - they do it as well. Maybe it would have been better if I had never told them? But no, I'm thankful for their support and love, I wouldn't want to miss it!
So you are from bosnia?
I'm from Germany...
Lets keep in touch.
I'm göad I can talk to you!
Best wishes

Name: Marina | Date: Jan 13th, 2007 3:03 PM
hey,sorry guys, I'm glad you 2 have struck up a freindship....Heres my email address [email protected] also have msn messanger by the way. And yea my name is german but i'm not from germany I live in New Zealand. 

Name: deja vu18 | Date: Jan 13th, 2007 4:06 PM
Hey kati1804, how was your day today? Did you binge at all? well I'm trying to cut down. It's so hard though. Sometimes I just can't control it. Do you still hide it from your parents? My mom still thinks that I eat normally. I keep most of the food in my room. The only problem is I don't make myself purge anymore, but I still throw- up afterwards or have diarrhea. I think chewing gum helps to keep me from binging sometimes, but it usually doesn't last long. What do you do? By the way, what is your msn? 

Name: deja vu18 | Date: Jan 13th, 2007 4:11 PM
I'm really glad I met you and kati1804. Lets keep in touch over msn. 

Name: Kathi1804 | Date: Jan 13th, 2007 5:02 PM
I'm just installing msn, I had it before but it's not working on this computer.
I'm also very glad I met you two. It's such a good feeling talking to you two. I'll see if msn will work now, otherwise I'm going to write here again.
Best wishes to the both of you!

Name: James oconnor | Date: Jan 14th, 2007 3:54 AM
hello yes my names James i have a mate who is anorexic i go on walks with her every day i help here talk not stop ive helped her a lot i can help you i am Bulimic and maybe you can help me 

Name: James oconnor | Date: Jan 14th, 2007 3:54 AM
my email is [email protected] contact me 

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