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Name: ally murphy
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Hi! This is the first time i have ever talked about my problem. The only people who know is my doctor and bf. I don't like talking to anyone about it coz i feel they will look down at me and say i'm being stupid. All i can ever think about is what im going to binge on next and the the toilet. I hate thinking like this but thats all i can think about. My boyfriend doesn't understand he says im lovely as i am but i can't see it. He say's if i lose anymore weight i will have to go to hospital. All he says is your a size 6 don't you understand your too thin. But when i look in the mirror all i see is a fat ugly horriable person. I need help but im to scared.
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Name: renamommy | Date: Nov 8th, 2006 4:13 AM
If you are pregnant and doing this, you NEED to get help!! I have never had an eating disorder, so I can't say I know how you feel, but it seems like with any other thing, an addiction. You can't do this on your own and you have a person growing inside you that is already relying on you. Please get the help you need. 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Nov 9th, 2006 5:17 PM
Im not pregnant i didn;t write that. 

Name: elisabethxx | Date: Nov 21st, 2006 12:44 AM
i know how you feel, and i think that it's really great that you're coming out about it. binging is the hardest thing to quit, but when you do you feel so great about yourself. if you want to talk my e-mail is : [email protected] 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 21st, 2006 10:33 AM
Well...my name is Brittany, and I guess rite now i dont even care if anyone responds to what i have 2 say.. i just need someone 2 talk 2. Idk where 2 turn n e more.. ive been ana/bulimic sense i was 13 now, i just turned 20 two days ago.. my parents and boyfriend know that i am tryin to get over my problem.. and i always tell them that im doing great, b~cuz they have dealt with me for so long i cant stand 2 see how sad they get when i tell them that i am not. no one understands b~cuz everyone tells me that i am beautiful.. i was down to a size 0 about 2 months ago.. i am now to a 3, yet going crazy, tho i know that isnt big. i just want 2 stop, and when i say it out loud than i normally can stop myself, soo.. im not sure where im going with this.. maybe i want 2 talk 2 someone, maybe i want someone 2 listen.. or maybe i just need 2 hear myself say it soo i can get through 2nite without throwing up, sense thats what ive been doing all day long.. 2morrow is a new day.. rite? and ive been told, one day at a time.. rite? so.. starting rite now.. i can do it.. rite? 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Nov 21st, 2006 12:40 PM
Hey Brittany
Yes you can do it im trying to sort myself out. Two weeks ago i got refered to a ed specalist.
I really hope it works as me and my bf want to try for a baby once i have stopped.
You could say thats the only reason why i want to stop.
Whos to say i wont start again.
But at least im trying right?? 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 21st, 2006 1:53 PM
your very rite.. its a huge step that you are even here admitting it.. and that is awesome.. and that is also why im here. if you ever wanna just talk one on one.. if you think that would help.. i would be mroe than willing 2 listen. [email protected] even if i never hear from you on here or on email again.. i wish you the best.. i completely understand.. maybe we can all get over this with each others help.. sometimes it takes a stranger who understands.. instead of the loved ones who try but just cant fully understand.. ya know? best wishes.. xoxoxo 


Name: jennifer11 | Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 11:05 AM
[email protected] 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 4:24 PM
Thank you.
I will take up your offer and email you.
My email is [email protected].
Its nice to know taht there are people going through the same thing as you. And nice knowing someone is here to talk to.
If you want to chat just email me.

It does feel like no one in the whole world understand but after finding this site i know different now.

xxxx 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 24th, 2006 1:08 AM
Trust me hun.. i understand more than you know. Its hard... hardest thing ive ever done, if it wasnt than i wouldnt have been ana/bulimic for the last 7 years.. for the 1st time ever im on the rite path.. i know you can be 2. im always here 2 talk. 

Name: WEIRD | Date: Nov 24th, 2006 4:39 AM
I HATE TO BE TOO PERSONAL...BUT HOW OLD ARE YOU???
I'm 40 and i still battle this disease because I wasn't pro-active until my late 30's.
Believe me you don't want to waste your life on this disease.
I relate to everything you say because we suffer from the same problem. 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 24th, 2006 2:41 PM
Oh no.. not 2 personal at all... i think everyone on here knows the most personal stuff about me! if you were talkin 2 me tho.. im 20. im gettin better tho.. day by day... at least feeling better.. and i know ive only done good for a couple days... but thats still a good step rite? im very sorry that you are 40 and still struggling.. but trust me, its never 2 late! i know that you would be able 2 stop! best wishes! 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Nov 24th, 2006 4:58 PM
Im 19 and been doing it for 6 years.
I had a really big binge last noght i completely lost it and couldn't stop being sick.
It still feels good when i do do it though.
Will that feeling ever stop?

xxx 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 25th, 2006 3:24 AM
Id like 2 say yes the feeling will stop... but i still have my bad days... and i dont really know. all i know is that we can all fight it.. its hard, and sometimes we just give in, but think about the days when you DID fight it.. did you not feel amazing?? honestly.. whenever i have bad thoughts, i come here... and lately its been stopping me... just 2 know that other girls/woman are going through the same thing i am.. understand me.. and i can talk/help someone else.. it helps me alot.. so thank you 2 all of you.. ur all amazing and i know we all an get through it! best wishes! 

Name: WEIRD | Date: Nov 25th, 2006 3:39 AM
Hi Ally and Brittany,
It was really amazing to get responses...I've never been to a chat room before but I thought I'd give it a try. I go to overeaters anon...but hardly ever find people I can relate to because they aren't typically suffering from bulimia / anorexia. So basically I don't get help anymore...all my family thinks I've recovered so I feel so alone. 

Name: Brittany | Date: Nov 25th, 2006 12:22 PM
Hello... well trust me, u are def not alone... AT ALL. like i said b4... it doesnt matter how old u are... its something horriable.. and when no one knows, it makes it all the worse.. cuz than u think 2 urself, well no one knows, so no one will know if i dont stop.. well now we know, and we can help u and support u all the time! at least i know i will.. cuz i know how hard it is. i had another good day 2day... ive been doin awesome sense the 22nd.. i know thats not long, butt... its awesome 4 me. if ud ever like 2 email me, feel free... other wise i try 2 check this at least once a day. [email protected] 

Name: purpal2002002 | Date: Nov 27th, 2006 1:37 AM
I understand how you feel . I hope you do get the help you need . I don't think someone will look down on you . Forgive your self and learn to love yourself to . God Bless 

Name: mahriya | Date: Nov 30th, 2006 7:46 AM
Its nice to know I'm not the only one feeling this way... 

Name: disorderautumn | Date: Dec 6th, 2006 1:03 AM
well if your too scard the most you can do is look to those who know. What makes you not like urself? 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Dec 7th, 2006 10:55 AM
I have never liked myself.
I think its all about control because when i was 16 my dad raped me and that has changed my life completey.
I started to make myself sick from the age of 13.
I have tried to get help but nothing seems to work.
My doctor has refered me to an ED group i hope this will help.
If not i dont know what else to do.
xxx 

Name: misspink1985 | Date: Dec 28th, 2006 8:17 PM
Hi, i'm also a size six and at one time i also thought that i was over weight. now i look back and realise how wrong i was. I'm 5ft 2in tall and I weigh 7 and a half stone. I realised how skinny i was when i went shopping and fiited into a size 4 top,it really scared me. i used to look in the mirror and feel discusted but now i just eat healthily,making sure i drink plenty of water and eat lots of fruit and vegetables with my meals. i'd like to talk to anyone needing a friend to listen. wish you all good health. x 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Dec 29th, 2006 9:00 AM
Hey misspink 1985.
Im 5'5 and weigh 7 st im putting on weight and i hate it i dont know what to do.
I feel so fat and horrid.
I dont want to be fat anymore.
I was starting to get better and i hadn't made myself sick for about 3 weeks but over xmas i have done it several times and i want to do it more.
I hope one day i will stop but when ever i try to it just comes and bites me on the arse. 

Name: lulu101 | Date: Dec 29th, 2006 10:26 AM
Heya!This is my first time on this too!I need help!I need to loose weight!Im 5.5 and 7.3st!All my friends and family are so skinny and then thers me!I feel so fat all the timeWhen i look in the mirror i jst see bulges of fat!!i havnt talkd about this to anyone cause i know they'll jst brush it aside!So does anyone have any tips that will help me!! 

Name: ally murphy | Date: Dec 29th, 2006 10:45 AM
lulu101 i dont mean to sound harsh but i am not giving you "tips" its wrong to encourage ed's this is a site for support and help not to encourage.
Please get some help and dont be so silly. 

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