I'm probably the millionth person on here to post about bulimia and it's effects on me, but I honestly don't know where else to go. My friends have enough to deal with or just don't understand, my mom is completely gullible to it all, and my boyfriend, as sweet as he's been through it all, can't really relate and understand how difficult it is to stop, even though i want to.
I know I'm not the only one here that's suffering from bulimia, but i also know im not the only one that knows just how hard it is to stop. to actually taste food instead of scarfing it down just so you can purge it later. ive been battling mia since 8th grade off and on, trying as hard as possible to stop, but mia always wins, i always give in. for a year i stopped purging then a small trigger came from one of my guy "friends" (who is not a friend anymore) and put me right back in that dark corner. the worst feeling is that you know you started it on your own, but you cant stop yourself, like turning yourself into a mental ward: you checked yourself in, but you cant check yourself out, they own you.
so i ask if there's anyone out there who knows what it feels like to have an ed ANY kind, please contact me. I want serious people not assholes who think it's funny to poke fun at life-threatening illnesses like this. yes i know i started it, but it's no different than alcohol or drugs or ciggarettes, just as hard to quit.
Also, if anyone needs to talk, I'll be here for you, hell, we'll be there for each other. and to let everyone know (just for the hell of it) im 19, in college, and im not a toothpick. (though i wish i were) take care all. ↓
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