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Name: shan
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I'm 31 and have had issues with food for about 11 years finally becoming bulimic in the last 5. I saw a counselor for a few months but I am back in school and money is tight. I couldn't afford to keep going. It's so expensive, over about 3 months I spent around $1500-2000. My husband is self-employed and does well, but that is a huge amount of money!! I have days that go by with no binging/purging but then I'll have an episode that goes on for several days. I hate it! I've opened up to my husband about it and he talks to me when I bring it up but he never brings the issue up himself. I think he hopes I'll be able to just get a grip on it myself, but obviously I can't do it by myself or I would. I've noticed a lot of younger responders to messages but was just hoping to see if anyone out there was close in age with this same problem. It would be great to talk to someone who really knows how I feel. I feel so ashamed of myself and so inadequate as a person. I've never gone into a chat room or left a message online like this before so I really don't know what to expect. I've always had a very difficult time developing close relationships with women b/c I am constantly comparing myself and I feel like I am in constant competition with them. It's sick, I know, but how can you put an end to the cycle. I think it's stronger than me. Anyway, if anyone would like to talk, please e-mail me at [email protected] you for taking the time to read this!
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Name: la-toya | Date: Feb 12th, 2006 5:17 PM
i am bulimic ,and do have help but want them to go and leave me alone, they just ask to much question. 

Name: shirley | Date: Feb 16th, 2006 2:41 AM
I have been bulimic for over 23 years and I see no hope of my recovery from this sickness. I am a coward, and I cannot punish the ones responsible for my falling into this trap now. i hope you have alot of faith and are blessed in your struggle. 

Name: shirley | Date: Feb 16th, 2006 2:46 AM
I know well of your struggle. i have a fiance and I know that he knows that I have an eating disorder, but he refuses to face me with my actions. I think that he is afraid of loosing me. I feel that I have no one but God to help me at times and I have promised him that I will qit so many times and then asked for forgiveness that I feel that I have used up all of my chances there also. 

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