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Name: bri
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i always feel so lost. i have always wanted to lose weight ever since i was little. i still remember sitting in my first grade class looking at all the skinny girls and hating myself. i still do. my mom always says things to me or she'll make ignorrant comments. she always has. do u know how much that hurts? having ur mom call u fat and put u on diets? it sux..it really does. my mom and my step mom weigh less than me. my mom is 115 and my stepmom is 117. i just got sick of being fat and started starving myself. soon i started shoving my fingers down my throat. it felt disgusting but i did it anyway. so i was 5'2 and i weighed 140. now i weigh 120. i was so happy when i lost all that weight. but it's not enough. u know there are guys who weigh less than me. even women 10 years older than me weigh less. it's sickening. then i became a vegetarian not becuz i wanna lose weight but cuz i just wanted to. people tell me i am skinny but i'm not. I'M NOT! every time i look in the mirror all i see is fat, fat, and more fat. so i skip meals, push my fingers down my mouth and jump on the scale. it's a never ending cycle. it feels like something i have to do. it really is the only way. but i am getting braces tomorrow. then i'll have an excuse not to eat. so i won't tear a hole in my stomach trying to lose weight. am i just crazy or is there anybody that can relate.
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Name: newinneryou | Date: Sep 22nd, 2006 6:08 PM
Hi, my name is Adam. I can not completely understand what your going through, no one can fully understand but you, but I have gone though and am going through the same sort of things you are. I had a recent major car accident that was my fault and a couple of people got hurt. Ever since then I have been an outcast to my family and friends ... it was a mistake but it was still my mistake ... my wife is a recovering anorexic and she has gone through a lot in the past as well. So we sometimes joke that between the two of us, we cover every disorder in the book. We decided to that because we had some wonderful people that worked hard to help us, that we should do the same for others. We are putting together a website called newinneryou.com with a forum and a live chat where we have counsellors answering questions and people sharing experiences like you are here... I would love to invite you to come and chat with us. We don’t even have to talk about problems and sad stuff either ... we are trying to make a place to meet new friends too. Well, I hope to see you there sometime. The site is still being developed so if you don’t see me there and you want to chat, you can email me at [email protected]. Hope to talk to you soon... Adam. 

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