hey. well i guess i should start off saying that i dont really thing i have an eating disorder..
i mean, i guess i could go a day without eating, and i have done that, but i really like plurging instead.
and the deal is that, i dont plurge after every meal.
some times when im like in school, i feel i cant.
i usually just throw up lunches and dinners.
sometimes i cant all of them though..
i feel much better after i do though.
its like a feeling that i know im getting skinnier somewhere, somehow..
i have more energy. and sometimes i guess i get pains that are trying to tell me to eat something. but my brain is thinking that it already did so i can fight needing to eat.
im not fat, but i have fat in places i dont want it.
i want long skinny limbs a nice butt =) a pretty stomach and a slender face. i have ALWAYS had a chubby face.. and it bugs me soo much. hahh
i guess i might be over obsessing but i mean doing this makes me happy.
i really feel i would be much happier if i got to look like how i want.
so any way. are there any experienced belimics that can give me any tips r just talk?
thankks a wicked lot =]
xox ↓
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