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Name: butterfly
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i just need some one to talk to im nearing my end here. i have ana and i cant take it any more. im so sick and i have 3 kids. my drs. r feed up w my ed and r not helping me. they just keep sticking me in the hospital. im tired and so scared. im on deaths bed again. ii just want this monster to go away.
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Name: starving 4 perfection.. | Date: Oct 1st, 2007 9:34 PM
email me [email protected]

Name: butterfly | Date: Oct 1st, 2007 10:56 PM
i emailed u. thanks so much for talking w me 

Name: mizzy | Date: Oct 20th, 2007 8:56 AM
listen hunny
i knw hw u feel
im bullemic n hv been for 3 yrs
u wnt it to stop my best advice is u hv 2 tlk 1st
i knw hw u feel bou doctors
n i knw bu if u wna tlk add me [email protected] 

Name: moonen | Date: Oct 20th, 2007 11:02 AM
I know how you feel as well. I am 33 and I have been anorexic on and off for 15 years. I go through phases. I am on one of my major weight loss phases right now. I actually took it upon myself to check out an eating disorder center for their Out Patient Program which i am doing. I also have a child. I know how hard it is to have kids and a husband and battle this crap alone. First off no doctor should act "FED UP" w/ your disorder b/c that is what it is, a DISORDER! It's not like we wake up every morning and say WOW this is great I love the fact that there is a battle going on in my head on what to eat, when to eat, if i should eat. It's a lonely, dark, scary place to be in. I often want to cry and scream and hide all at the same time. I am ANGRY all the time and I isolate myself. I over exercise(that is my addiction), and I spend hours away from my daughter and husband to do this. The pressure i put upon myself every day to achieve a goal that isn't even reachable is totally ridiculous!!!!!! If you think you are alone you are not. There are so many of us out there. Don't let those doctor jerks make you feel guilty, stupid or crazy. I found it very helpful to go to group therapy b/c it showed me that I am not alone. It was so nice to talk w/ people who did not judge me or think that i was selfish or stupid. Every time one of them spoke i was sitting there thinking oh my god that is how i feel or that is what i think too. Just being w/ these people gave me a ton more confidence in myself. It showed me that i didn't have to hide anymore, and I could actually talk instead of battling it alone w/ my thoughts. I knew that i had to do if for my kid and my husband. I knew that they deserved that much from me. I know that as i get better and my body and mind start to heal the focus on why I entered the center will shift from doing it for them to doing it for me. Right now they are my motivation b/c the ED is too strong, but in time i am confident it will change. Hang in there and even though it's scary(VERY), dont give up and dont dispair. Your family loves you and need you even if you don't love yourself. 

Name: cheerleader136 | Date: Oct 21st, 2007 4:29 PM
e-mail me. [email protected] 

Name: fatty123 | Date: Oct 21st, 2007 8:43 PM

how did u get ana?? did u just stop eating??


Name: butterfly | Date: Oct 21st, 2007 11:46 PM
moonen thank u! u sound just like me! i have got into an eating disorder inpatient clinic but im waiting on a bed to open. im wantin to get better now! im so tried of this monster in my head. thanks for ur post and if u would like to chat or email my email and yahoo is [email protected] thanks again 

Name: butterfly | Date: Oct 21st, 2007 11:46 PM
i will not tell u how to make ur self sick sorry find someone else 123 

Name: mandyr | Date: Nov 30th, 2007 1:04 PM
i no how u feel i am going thro the same i also have 3 kids if u wanna talk email me at [email protected] 

Name: Sankofa | Date: Dec 3rd, 2007 4:52 AM
When I was in treatment I would read this everyday.

Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirite who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body. 1 Corinthians 7:4

you just need to flip the switch. Say...I'm done I'm not doing this anymore and then flee from it. Take off running in the opposite direction. Don't let anything stop you.

It doesn't matter who gives up on you...because Christ will never give up on you. He is fighting for you!

Phillippians 4:13 syas I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

you can do it. If you ever need my chat my e-mail is [email protected] 

Name: bigloser | Date: Dec 13th, 2007 10:58 PM
notice the response that says i will not help you to learn 

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