I would have tryed harder at school,and not faked being ill just to get a few days off work(and boy did that land me in trouble)
But i do love my life now! ↑ |
I wouldn't have got involved with my first sons' father as he makes our lives a misery all the time!
I would also have left my horrible mother earlier than I did and got a decent job. ↑ |
| I would still be a virgin : ( ↑ |
| i would have waited to have had kids and then would have only had one. i would have bought a house first and a brand new black rav 4 cruiser.i would never have cut all my friends off like i did and i would have studied harded to have become a forensic scientist ↑ |
| I would have finished getting my Teaching Credential and a degree in Counseling. Everything happens for a reason. I have been through everything in my life from incest, rape and all my family members dying from cancer.I have been in abusive relationships and survived drug addiction in it's worst form. If there was any thing that I would change about my life I would have spent more time paying attention to the words of wisdom my parents tried to teach me. I have 5 children from 3 different marriages and now I am working on marriage #4 and I think I got this one right. You don't have good judgement when you're high guys. Doesn't work that way. You get out of life what you put into it. Everything you do in this life comes back to you tenfold. Good or bad it all comes back. I would have liked to have had my dad around longer. He died on May 29,1977. 29 years ago. His death was ugly and violent and I was there holding him. I was 16 years old. I have experienced the wonder of life and the sadness of death. My mom passed away in 2001. She was only 73. If I can be half the mom she was I'll be something. We used to have a saying--A Mother is not a person to lean on-but a person who makes leaning unnecessary. She taught me how to be sensitive and strong. It was the inner strength that she taught me and her faith in me that I was able to overcome my addiction.I grew up. I am a survivor of many things. There is a reason that I am here. Maybe this is it. I love life. I love people. I went through all this trial and tribulation and hurt, hopefully so someone else doesn't have to. My advice comes from my personal experiences and it is given with care and concern for the parents out there who are suffering. There is help. You just have to know who to call or who to ask. I am here for all of you. My heart goes out to you and your families. God Bless. ↑ |
| Wow! Your words brought tears to my eyes! I'm sorry for your hard times and am glad you have changed for the better. Yes,I too believe things happen for a reason though day after day I struggle with wonder as to why exactly I am here.I'm not a drug user or an alcoholic but I do suffer from depression and anxiety badly. I have been in counseling for several years and it really doesn't help me. I have raised a child into a descent young man,(he'll be 15 soon) but that's really the only thing I am proud of myself about.I'm married to my sons dad and he is an alcoholic and has had drug problems off and on throughout our life together,(17 yrs. total). He has been to rehab a total of 3 times which did no good. Sometimes I want to be alone without him but I'm not strong enough to stand on my own I don't think. I have very low self esteem. My days are spent running my husband to and from work as he has had 2 DUI's and cannot drive himself.I feel as though that is my only purpose for being here and it is getting very old. I'm missing vacationing with my family once again this summer because I have to again be my husbands taxi. I feel as though I'm stuck and don't know where to turn with my life. I fear alot of things and being on my own is one of them. I get financial help due to the severity of my anxiety which I feel low and embarassed about. My husband works but doesn't make good money at all,($7.50 per hour) and half of that goes for his beer and cigarettes addiction so I very rarely have any extra money and when I do it usually will go toward something my son needs so I only get to buy something for myself once in a great while and only if it's something I absolutely need like new clothes,(I only own a few outfits and most are t-shirts),I'll wear the same ones over and over until they start falling apart and I must buy new ones.My grandparents were a huge part of my life and they are both gone now and I feel so lonely without them.I have other grandparents but I'm not close with them like I was to the ones who are now gone.Anyway,I just wish I could figure out what to do with my life. ↑ |
| mamatree that made me cry as well. You have turned your life around, you must be very strong. Do you really think what you put out there really comes back 10 fold? How do you change? I am so insecure its unbeliveable. I get put out over stupid things and after it feel like an idiot, how do i change this way of behaving? ↑ |
| I would have gotten high more ! he he .... not actually I would have put more energy into high school & actually paid attention at times lol ↑ |
