I lost my beloved Cavalier King Charles Spanie, Bono, to heart failure in October last year. I'd had him since I was 14-years-old, right up to a few days before my 23rd birthday, when my lovely boy slipped away from me at the young age of only 8 and a half years old, despite my rushing him to the vet for emergency treatment, which I thought might save his life. Despite my other pets, and a new baby coming in September, I'm still so distraught. At the time it ripped the heart and soul out of me, and I cried steady for weeks, and couldn't function. He really meant the world to me as I had a difficult childhood in which he was my rock, and I'm still lost without my little friend. Every day I cry for him. I can't even think of him without reliving the guilt I feel for not being able to save him, and for not being by his side when he passed away. I don't mean to be so sad, because I know I should be thinking of my pregnancy and what's best for my baby. Despite the fact that its now been 6 months, I have not even begun to get over it. How do I get past this? ↓
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