Hi everyone, I am a 36 year old mom of three beautiful kids. My fiance and I have been together for 6 years and it has always been a tumultous relationship. There were good times and bad times. Three years ago he had an affair and we moved on from it. He stopped drinking and all was well for about a year. He got a new job and through friends there made the decision to start drinking again. Things just spiraled out of control. He would again go out and only come back the next morning, that would make me resentful and we would end up fighting. A month ago I found out that he once again met a 23 year old research student that was only in the country for three months and he told her that he is single etc. I contacted her and she had no idea that he was involved let alone engaged. She obviously broke it off with him and has since left the country. He moved out and is living with his dad now. He says that he loves me, but cannot continue to hurt me anymore and needs to figure out why he does these things. By all rights I should hate him...right? Why can't I let go? Why do I still want him back? How do I let go? ↓
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