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Name: Shawna | Date: Mar 20th, 2011 6:55 AM
I am Debbie's friend who just posted about my little girl. I delivered MacKenzie on 6/23/08 and she passed away on 7/2/08 after putting up the fight of her life. She did so much in this world than we will ever been able to do! She brought healing, she brought peace but most of all, she brought many people to God. She is my miracle on earth. If you need anyone to talk to, Debbie is a great resource and I would love help you through your times of pain. Nothing about losing a child is fair or natural. There are days that I have good days and some days are much harder than others. I would love to talk to you more because there is so much more to my situation. MacKenzie was our second loss, our first was born at 20 weeks and was still born. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!
email address: [email protected] 

Name: Jessica Gladney | Date: Mar 30th, 2011 11:21 PM
when i became pregeant at 26 years old with my husband we wait 3 years to wait have children after been married for 3 years then because pregeant with are first child feb 2010 to and then miscarrige at 17 week in july 2 2110 we found out that the baby i carried don't make it and it was a boy he was 8 inch long and 7oz i still went to delived and held it in my arm with my husband and my family at the hospital it was delived at 7:27 pm at night and if are son made it healthy it would been born november 172010 3 days before my parent anniversity. This baby is going to be special to us because it is going still be are first one and we name it luke austin. 

Name: Debbie | Date: Mar 31st, 2011 6:44 PM

you are right that baby (Luke Austin) is very special. god had another plan for him. He is angel with wings. And when you have other children never be afraid to tell them about their brother and how he watches over them. I just wish it wasnt so painful. cuz we had dreams and futures already set for them in our minds. 

Name: Judy | Date: Apr 12th, 2011 4:46 PM
hi there im a 25 yr old mom of a 2 n a half year old and i got pregnant with my bf now my fiance ,i was due on march 18th/2011.
but in stead i had a emergency c section one week before,me and my fiance were in bed and of course late night trips to washrooms few times a night well i had went at lik 3am and again at 5am,but this time at 5am i had brownish stuff in my underwear,we had no idea and figured maybe its the mucus plug i wasnt in any pain so thats what we thought untill about 530 i read online and it said it was the babys stool,and said the baby is in trouble if this happens,so i told my fiance that i think something is wrong and he should get his mom to come over and watch my son,but he said she had to work and wouldnt be able to watch him till later,well he had told me before that if i go into labour we can count on his mom,well that wasnt the case then cause she had to go to work and cant leave so then we had no one to watch my son an i wasnt in that much pain at 530 and didnt want to wake him up,so of course me thinking and feeling somethings not right with the baby and thinking i lost it,my fiance was saying that everything should be okay,i really wanted to go to the hospital but he said we can go later if your in more pain at that time i only had tiny cramps nothing to major but still i felt something was wrong,so we both went back to bed i was soooooooo mad at him i said if something happens to the baby and we loose it im going to hold it against him just cause he said it should be ok and he thought was the mucus plug,but apparently my water broke sometime when using the toilet at 3 am or 530 am and i did not know it had no idea :(
anyways my son woke up that morning at 730 so we got up and i had a major killer pain in my left side as i tried to stand up it hurt so bad i started crying my fiance asked whats wrong i never answered him cause i knew i had to be loosing the baby i was so mad at him.and he said we should go to hospital isaid we have no one to watch my son till around 9am when his mom can leave work,so i got up and used the washroom and there was blood this time :( so i knew it wasnt good,but we couldnt leave yet cause i dont want to bring my son to hospitals he hates them,so we had breakfast it hurt for me to even stand up so my fiance made breakfast for us. then 9am came along and we were getting ready to leave as i was walking i could barely walk it hurt so bad.so we got to the hospital and waited like 30 min after them doing there tests to decide to have a emergency c section :( they had to rush me in cause i started having contractions ,oh and the baby was laying side ways in breech position,so everytime i had contractions it was pushing out the umbillica cord since baby couldnt come out the way it was laying inside me,it had a pro lapsed umbillica cord :(
they tried to save him but he had only 2heartbeats per minute in a total of 15minutes so they knew he wouldnt make it so they stopped.
so i found out when i woke up i had a baby boy 6pounds 4 ounces,19 inchs,he was so beautifull and he looked just like his daddy exactly in every single way.we got to hold him and got pictures from hospital and we took some with us holding him.it is so hard for me to this day and its been a month since i lost him,but now my relationship with my fiance is not the same i dont look at him the way i used to,a part of me looks at him and sees my baby boy and the other part of me looks at him thinking its his fault or i would of been better off not meeting him and then i wouldnt of lost my baby boy if i wasnt pregnant i wouldnt be in this much pain,everyday i feel so much pain in my heart i cant explain what it feels like,but now i am worried my relationship with my fiance is going to go downhill more and were going to split up,he wants to have another kid right away so my son can have someone to play with but i dont think he relizes how much pain i am in, i cant have another baby and be happy while i am still hurting inside,if i do i would get stressed and worried about being pregnant and loose the baby ,i dont want that,im not ready to be again.and not sure when i would be either.but to say the least i dont know what to do i try talk to my fiance but its like he is sad inside but dont say it or he dont understand the pain im in i held and looked after the baby for 9 months so the bond is alot more then his, this baby was his first kid as i had my son with another guy it never worked out,so my fiance was so excited about it but i never see it in his eyes that he is sad,it just seems like we want to work it out but were not all lovey dovey like how we used to be,i want to be with him but at the same time it hurts me to be with him,i really dont know what to do :( i know what everyone is going threw the loss of loosing your own baby,its a pain that will hurt more then anything,people say time heals but how can it when all i do is think about my poor baby boy :( 

Name: judy | Date: Apr 12th, 2011 4:50 PM
please email me back at [email protected]
if you have anything that will help me get threw this thanks judy 

Name: kathy | Date: Jun 2nd, 2011 4:38 AM
i lost my twins 25 years ago today ashley was born at 204 and donnie was born at 225. i still think about them everyday and think what did i do wrong. i hope they know i love and miss them and i always think about them i just want to say happy birthday i miss and love you both and i am sorry we never had the chance to be together. i will always love and think of you. take care of each other i know you always would of .love your mom 

Name: nikayleh | Date: Aug 18th, 2011 11:10 PM
yes i have been thru something like you...im only 15 been thru 2 pregnancies..i lost my son at 20 weeks he was healthy in my womb..i lost him 2 PROM..it hurts so bad because he was all the hope i had all that i lived for..i know im young but love is love so please dont judge..i pushed him out i felt him touch my leg i heard him gasp 4 air and i couldnt do anything to help him..i lost him 2 days ago and want to try again to get him back...am i wrong for wanting another? am i wrong to try to feel a void into my heart?

mommy and daddy love you so much 

Name: Debbie | Date: Sep 4th, 2011 5:06 AM
@ nikayleh

I am so sorry for ur loss. there is no judging on this site. AND I STRESS THIS TO EVERYONE WHO POSTS ON THIS SITE. !!!!
Yes 15 is young, but u still had hopes for your child. your child is now an angel watching over you. I feel in my heart, i know you want to fill that void, but sometimes things do happen for reasons. we may not know why or how until it is our turn. but our children of angels want us to stay strong. Its only been a few days for you, you need to make sure to talk to your doctor and support groups. find what will make you able to help your heart start to heal. dont try for a while. you still have a whole future a head of you. school, college, marriage, then plan.. your child would want u to be healthy and happy. I am so sorry for ur loss. I have put up my email and you can email me at [email protected] and put in the first line.. loss child. I will respond as fast as i can. God has your child.. and he has u in his heart. stay strong. I am so sorry for ur loss. 

Name: hurt | Date: Oct 17th, 2011 11:50 PM
Hi I just lost my son 4 weeks ago I only carried him for 5 months when I gave birth he did not have water around him and was squashed by the plecenta so his lungs and kidneys did not work just before he came out he gave me one last kick and then I saw my child laying like a ball of blood when he was cleaned up they brought him to me and I had never seen such a handsom baby b4 I miss him alot my heart still hurts it feels like I'm going crazy 

Name: debbie | Date: Oct 25th, 2011 3:54 PM
dear hurt.

I am so sorry to hear of ur loss. the pain is sometime unbearalbe to deal with. I tried to create this site so that we can all vent about our loss. If u need to talk more.. we are hear to listen. My heart goes out to u and your family. I always hope that all our children meet those children who are ready to become angels. sending thoughts ur way 

Name: Mommy0411 | Date: Dec 6th, 2011 5:55 PM
I just recently lost my son. I was 21 weeks pregnant. We found out when I was 15 weeks along that we had lost all my fluid. We went to doctors every week to check and to make sure that everything was good. until the day i had my son. I ended up with an infection. I don't wish a pond anyone to go though what I did. 

Name: Debbie | Date: Dec 13th, 2011 3:37 AM
To Mommy0411

I am so sorry for your loss of ur little boy. My friend also had an infection and loss of fluid. It is the worse pain I think anyone of use could go thru. I my heart and prayers are with u and your family.


Name: Debbie | Date: Dec 20th, 2011 6:04 AM
TO all u mommas out there!!!

On christmas i will lite a candle for all of our angel babies. May they be celebrating with our other losses.. Merry christmas and I hope everyones new year gets better..

Mom to Rj born an angel at 23 weeks gestation on 5/24/2006 

Name: Hopeful | Date: Apr 6th, 2012 12:51 AM
On April 27th 2006 I gave birth to my beautif daughter at 20 wks pregnant this date was also my 21st birthday no one was at the hospital with me I was so confused and devistated my baby took one breath and that was it I stayed all day with her they let me hold her and count fingers and toes and they let her stay in the room until I was discharged I just felt like giving up the a yr later god blessed me with a son I had to have a stich put in my cervix cause they said it was too soft then 21 wks along in the prgnancy my water broke and I delievered my son on August 15th of 2007 I ask myself everyday "why me" there is not a day that dnt go by that I miss them 6yrs and it still is not better how do I stop this from taking over my life? 

Name: tammy Patton | Date: Apr 12th, 2012 7:48 PM
My daughter was 6 monthspregant and now she kost he baby ehet said it drown in its fliuds amd the other fliids needed thye agve gher s ahot nto desingerator the body it willl come out like a dicharge bloody at thathas anyone heard of this? please help] 

Name: tammy my daughter lost her she | Date: Apr 12th, 2012 7:50 PM
rthey say if drowned on fliuds i thought flouids came from mothers then give her shot to desineragte the baody, Any one heard of this] please helo if so 

Name: Debbie | Date: Apr 29th, 2012 5:12 PM

I have never heard of that. It must be somthing rare. I would keep talking to the doctors untill u can fully understand what has happened to ur daughter and GB. I am so sorry for her loss. I hope you can get some answers, 

Name: Debbie | Date: Apr 29th, 2012 5:15 PM

I feel you with ur losses. it has also been 6 years since i had lost my son. It still hurts but each year it seems to get more bareable. Have you talked to your doctors? On their birthdays it seems to help I celebrate my sons birthday. I lite up a cup cake and sing to him then release ballons with birthday wishes on them. sending you hugs. 

Name: Shanda | Date: May 19th, 2012 3:42 AM
My child died on dec. 24 2010 and I almost died as well. I can't come to grips withmit 

Name: Debbie | Date: May 24th, 2012 5:17 AM

I am so sorry for the loss of your baby. U know that u must be having a hard tme with your loss plus almost loosing your life. it takes time to moved forward from this. take the time you need. tomorrow will be 6 years since i lost my little boy 5/24. if you need anyone to talk to look on page 1 of this site and you can find me by email or facebook.
take care your child is looking over you. you are hear for a reason.

mom to an angel RJ 5/24/2006 

Name: *iloveyou* | Date: Jun 18th, 2012 9:12 AM
Hello I just recently lost my 4 month pregnancy and I am not handling it well at all and I just need to talk to someone about it it's eating me alive 

Name: Debbie | Date: Jun 20th, 2012 5:28 PM
you can look at previous post. I have put my email. and you can look me up on face book. We are here to listen.. 

Name: yasmin25 | Date: Jun 26th, 2012 5:55 PM
i have just been through the same thing. i lost my baby at 22 weeks. i dont know who to talk to. or where to find support. 

Name: debbie | Date: Jul 24th, 2012 5:01 PM
yasmin25- i am so sorry for ur loss it is a very difficult time. you can look me up on face book. Debbie Spreeman-dickersonor
[email protected]. there are many supoort groups out there. but i have found this one helping making new friends and some peace that our babies are
Safe in the arms of god. 

Name: MistyGC | Date: Jul 26th, 2012 7:37 PM
This is all so sad! I'm so sorry that this ever has to happen to anyone! I almost lost my now 6 month old. The doctors had to watch her twice a week to monitor her growth and movement for about an entire month. Needless to say she finally quit growing at all, my amniotc fluid continually went down, and she was barely moving. They decided to take her an entire month early and I was terrified! She was born at 3lbs 13oz and had a few scares with loosing weight even after birth. This was all so scary, and I wish it upon no one! She stayed in the hospital for 2 weeks until we were able to take her home. Come to find out, it was the chemicals that I was putting on my body from my shampoo, body wash and all sorts of other things. The government doesn't make companies report new chemicals effects on people so they don't test them. They only have to report if a new chemical is made. So many of these (not all) can be prevented. Look it up at www.epa.gov. There are so many horrible long term and short term effects from things that we put on our bodies and in our homes, unfortunately unless you know to look it up you don't know. We were all raised to trust everything that is sold in the store, so why would we check on it. If you want to learn more, email me at [email protected]. And remember that it's not your fault, and they are in a much better world and place right now where such things will never happen to them. You are all beautiful, strong individuals that can make it through this tough time. You will all be in my prayers! God Bless! 

Name: brittany | Date: Oct 20th, 2012 11:39 PM
I delivered my child on march 23,2012. Three months early,within in minutes he passed. The doctor told me they couldn't find any reason for his death. Which hurt even worse because now I just wonder what could I have done different that he might be here today with me.I'll always remember holding my precious angel and God doesn't make mistakes its just hurts like no other pain in the world to lose your first child.I just pray for all the mothers that have lost children because I know what you're going through. 

Name: Shanndel | Date: Oct 21st, 2012 3:22 AM
Its has been only a year sence i lost my baby boy. I had him on september 7,2011. I was seventeen weeks pregnant and only 20 years oldi went into the hospital to find out why i was having very bad upper stomach pain and it took about an hour to try to find the heartbeat but found out that his heart had stopped.i really dont know or how this happened to my baby boy. i keep asking myself was it something that i did, or ate. or didnt do something right. Sometimes i think it was more of the physical abuse from his father that had something to do with it and then others i think it just wasent the right time for me to have a baby at that time but i do love and miss him. i pray everyday that things will get better for me. 

Name: brittany | Date: Nov 15th, 2012 2:05 AM
my name is brittany and i just lost my frist baby by miscarriage 

Name: Debbie | Date: Nov 24th, 2012 4:48 AM
Brittany- im so sorry for your loss no matter how far along you are it hurts. We are all here for you. Please stay strong and realize that you angels that are watching over you.


Name: myangels26 | Date: Dec 3rd, 2012 5:44 AM

Name: Debbie | Date: Dec 25th, 2012 12:59 AM
I want to wish all you mommies with angels a merry chirstmas. 

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