Here We Go Again! #3 is on the way! My eldest just turned two and my youngest is seven months. My husband and I have been actively preventing, but apparently we suck at birth control. I have been feeling off for about a week. About two weeks ago he and I had a bit of a mishap, but I thought... Surely I won't get pregnant. I am still exclusively breast feeding and I haven't gotten my period in months. Our second child was not planned, but we happily welcomed her. I took a pregnancy test. Since I know the conception date I can say that I know my due date. It came back positive. I am trying to get over the shock. It is still super early. I haven't quite come to grips with it. I feel like crying. I am fearful. My body is not healed since the last delivery. My body needed a break, but there is no denying it. There is a baby growing in my womb, a tiny human being developing. I have a son or daughter inside me right now and if all goes accordingly, in late September I will be holding baby #3. I will have an almost three year old, a 1 year and 3.75 months old, and a newborn. I am freaking out. My husband and I haven't had a chance to talk really, but I told him on the phone in tears on his break. 3 under 3! I am going to miss my brother's wedding now. We are going to be moving when I am 6-7 months pregnant. I can hear the disapproval of our families who will think that we are irresponsible to have children so close in age. I dread telling them. We probably won't until we are halfway through the pregnancy. I am feeling so lost right now. I know and believe that every baby is a blessing, but I don't feel ready. I just want to curl up in a corner and stay there. This is unrealistic though. I have two daughters to care for and a baby on the way. I am 25 years old and I have responsibilities. There really isn't time for self pity. I am an adult and it is time to plan.
2013-09-09 (0 weeks)
Entry #283 Motherhood My second daughter is a little over 3 months now and my first daughter will be turning two next month. She is happily weaned and we are working on potty training. I unfortunately, have a ton of gallstones and have had multiple attacks daily. I meet with the surgeon in two days and should have this evil sucker out relatively soon. We are planning her birthday out, which is tentative to my recovery. My husband wants to get her a puppy, but we will see as I will be the one being the primary caretaker on top of having two small girls. I am exceedingly happy. Motherhood definitely suits me. I plan to have more children, but would like a break for a few years from pregnancy. We plan on trying for our third in early 2016. My girls are so different, but each are my joy. I am so in love with them both. My husband is amazing this time around too. Practice definitely makes perfect!
2013-06-05 (0 weeks)
A Birth Story Length: 20.5 inches
Weight: 6lbs 7 oz
Time: 1:14 PM
Due Date: June 4, 2013
Weeks Pregnant: 39 Weeks 1 Day
I had been having inconsistent contractions for the previous three weeks. On the Friday before hand I had a scare with a ton of blood. Turns out it was just some bloody show and I had dilated to a four. They sent me home. My contractions became more painful, but were still inconsistent. That Wednesday morning I was woken at 3:30 AM by a sharp pain and more bloody discharge. I noticed that my contractions were coming every fifteen minutes and were quite painful. I attempted to go back to sleep, but it wouldn't happen. I showered and began cleaning. By 5ish they were coming every ten minutes and super painful. By six they were every 5 minutes and I could no longer talk or breathe through them properly. My sister arrived by 7 to take care of my older daughter and my contractions were 3 minutes apart. They put me on the monitors for hours! The pain was excruciating. My husband rubbed and massage my back the whole time. (love that man and couldn't have done it without him!) By 10:00 they checked me and I was a 5 and completely effaced. I got my EPI in by 11 just in time for transition. In 2hrs I went to complete and at just after 1 my doctor showed up for pushing. I pushed my second little girl out in under ten minutes! Just 4 pushes and my second beauty was born! I almost had my caul birth, but as she was crowning it burst and gave my OB an amniotic shower. I had to receive just one tiny stitch!!! I had a 9:30AM appointment, which we never made lol!! No membrane stripping for me. This birth experience was so close to perfect! And my husband and I are in love!!! I would also like to say that my Mother's intuition was spot on! I knew that she was a girl! Our older daughter is adjusting well to the newbie and my recovery is so easy compared to my toddlers delivery. Our second beauty is a week old today. I am absolutely thrilled with her and nursing is going so well! She is quite the milky monster and literally eats every two hours!
2013-05-22 (0 weeks)
Entry #281 38 Weeks and 1 Day I had my appointment today and am 2 CM dilated (stretches to 2.5CM) and am now 95% effaced, so some mild progress has been made. The OB says that this baby could come tomorrow, in a week, on time, or even late... There is just no telling or no predicting it. I could wake up to my water breaking tonight for all I know. The waiting games is both exciting and nerve wracking as I am trying to prepare everything for this Little One's arrival and get everything ready for our 19 month old daughter. I have been feeling restless since last night and even took my toddler out for a walk today. I have been busy with laundry, cleaning, organizing etc... I have my lists typed and packed: birth plan, hubby's duties, and my Natural Birth Focus Cycle. I have our toddlers rough schedule and rules printed out for my sister who will be taking care of her. Our bags have been packed since 30 weeks (even packed one for our toddler, so that she can spend the daylight hours with us) and the newbies carseat is properly installed and doubly checked. I washed everything and prepared the bassinet. The baby glider is set up, the double stroller is built, and my Beco has been adjusted for the newbie. I cleaned out the fridge and scrubbed the kitchen last night. I feel prepared. I feel ready to go. I have only a couple of things left that aren't crucial like rescrubbing the tub and remopping the bathroom floor... Maybe some touch up vacuuming as I just did it yesterday. I can't stop myself from moving and getting things done, though my husband keeps telling me to relax and conserve my energy! But I just can't! I feel antsy just typing this in the short time that it had taken! I want to continue to clean, but I am actually running out of things to do! Ugh. I can't wait to meet our second child. I am also looking forward to testing the full moon myth as my body is definitely read to go!