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my story started 2 n a half ears ago when my eating went down i started to get moody and lie to my parents about y i didnt want tea just saying i dont want anything not that hungry i had a big dinner but i hadnt had anything at all i would take dinner to school but throw it in the bin as soon as i could. My mum noticed my weight loss from 8st to 6.11 which is when she took me to the doctors he just said come bk if it gets any worse so then i ate for a while just to get my mum off my bk but as soon as she was i started to not eat again or cook myself something to eat and then when she left the room i would feed it to the dog or put it in the outside bin then i started to throw it up but only once as i didnt like being sick anyway never mind forcing myself to so i didnt do it again i just stuck to not eating. Then when i lost a lot more weight i would move off the sofa because i didnt have the energy to move i just wanted to sleep my school work went down and i just could be bothered with life at all. all i kept thinkin was how good i looked. My mum noticed this and took me bk and demanded the doctors did something which is when they admittedme into the hospital in the beginnin of this march. They kept me in for 2 weeks and within this time they tryed to feed me n got a psychologist in to talk to me and a nutritionist in to tlk to me but i refused all kinds of help. This is when it got really bad they referred me to a special unit in york which is a psyciatric unit for adolesence with problems not just eating disorders. I have been there since march and am still in there now only cumin home for my g.c.s.e's. they keep making me gain weight because in there you dont have a choice they make you eat and its not 3 meals a day its 6. i hate my life at the moment and my mum says if i dont buck my ideas up i have to move out but to be honest i could care less i just want to leave life behind its so shit i feel upset all the time i dont want to say i am depressed because i dont know what the symptoms are i just think that am stuck in the middle and cannot escape like i am screaming but just no sound is cumin out i dont know what to do anymore i feel like there are no more answers or no more way outs and stuck of ideas to help myself i just dont know what to do anymore x ↓
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