| Name: allie | Date: Feb 24th, 2006 4:42 AM |
| For about 4 yrs now purging has been a way for me to control stress and how I feel about myself. It's something most people don't understand because they think it's disgusting. I know what I do is gross but I don't know what else to do. I need help. ↑ |
| Name: g | Date: Mar 6th, 2006 8:01 PM |
| hi, i can totally understand how you feel, i used to be bulimic and its not that it can only have a huge effect on ur child, but on u, ir can be worse. i know this cuz my potassium level went rly low and i alsmot had to be hospitalzed.. thers no point in caring so much about what we look like and trying to stay thin and all cuz all ppl want is our happiness and we wont be happy if we worry all the time or id we make ourslef sick .. ybe ull gzin a couple of pounds if you stop but it wont be so bad.. the way to go id to eat when ur hungry and stop when ur not and eat good things like fruits and veggies and whole what bread and cereals.. anf ull be fne.. and ull feel better if u dont throw up and let the food pas.. ive gained 5 pounds sincr ive stopped but im just so muhc happier.. i try to eat healthy and excersise and honeslty, life isnt about being thin, u just wanna b e ahppy and ur starting a family, whcich is amazing so please stop! ive read a lot about thi disease and its hard to get over, it took me a while and i still throw up once in a hwile but im trying so hard to atop cuz i feel so sick after i throw up anyways good luck and to everyone, well make it.. but if anyone can help me even more get through this please do.. ↑ |
| Name: nicole | Date: Mar 8th, 2006 4:17 PM |
| Name: rach | Date: Mar 15th, 2006 3:07 AM |
| i try to eat healthy and make a good healty diet for myself. I run everyday and for some reason its just not enough becuase at nite ill pig out and feel so sick ill make myself sick. I hate it but i love the feeling oh maybe ill look a lil thinner or feel thinner tommrow morning. ↑ |
| Name: Hong Tran | Date: Mar 18th, 2006 1:22 PM |
| Hi Sarah, my name is Hong, and I can DEFINITELY RELATE to your story. I myself tried so hard to control my bulimia behaviour ways before I became pregnant. I was purging until I found out that I was 6month pregnant! I didn't even know! The hurt and guilt I felt inside was quite unbearable knowing the possible damage I could have done. To be honest, I couldn't (didn't) stop until I was into 7.5 months. My son had to be induced and was born healthy. I would like to hear further from you and about your son's progress. Hope all is well for the both of you! ([email protected]) ↑ |
| Name: chris | Date: Mar 23rd, 2006 6:08 PM |
| i dont know if im bulimic or not i make myself throw up every thing i eat nothing goes in my body without coming back out through my mouth do i need help? ↑ |
| Name: Sonya | Date: Apr 7th, 2006 5:49 PM |
Hello Sarah and all the other ladies,
It's good to have this forum to let you know you're not alone in your suffering, guilt and confusion. I am a 43 year old mother of 2 who was bulimic on and off from 18 - 35. 25 years ago, I had never even HEARD of Bulimia...I just thought I was a freak who was doing something that I was very ashamed of, but couldn't stop. I did manage to stop throughout my 2 pregnancies convincing myself that it was not all about ME anymore. Although, people like us sadly think about everyone BUT ourselves most of the time. This is why we are able to continually damage our health and bodies fearing what others think about us. We value the opinions and thoughts of others, over our own self worth (and lives!).
I will say, it's not an easy journey to find self-worth. Our lack of it comes from how we were made to feel about ourselves growing up, from family to society. Since the beginning of time, women have been made to feel their power was in their beauty...which really was quite true when women had no rights and were merely possesions. All people really want from US or anyone is to feel special...and if we can make someone else feel special, that is why they love us or like to be around us. The reason you love or like others is because of how they make you feel about YOURSELF! Just think.... isn't that why we actually act out this harmful behavior...so we feel special and admired. Think about a society that tells a women the less space she takes up...the BETTER! (hmmm). Don't waste another minute of your precious lives giving in to the twisted ideals that still linger in our society about a women's worth. It only makes you physically weak and not able to live your true purpose! We all have a true purpose, and MOST of us are BLESSED that it isn't being a fashion model!
Each day...try doing a random act of kindness for somebody...it will bring you a little glimpse of the happiness you will be able to feel when you realize all you have to offer, which isn't your body, it's your spirit.
P.S. forget the guilt...you can't go back...only forward. If you are in this forum, you are looking for help, so be proud that you've taken that step. You are not weak, you just haven't realized yet that you are using the wrong technique to find your strength and purpose.
With much compassion and hope,
Sonya
[email protected] ↑ |
| Name: lauren | Date: Apr 9th, 2006 9:11 PM |
| i have kind ov had bellumia b4 bt my friends helped me through and i didnt need to tell my mum and dad but now ive bcum conious bout my body again and htinking bout becoming bellumic again ithink its easy then anorexia but doesnt have such a qick effect do any girls have advice ↑ |
| Name: sue | Date: Apr 14th, 2006 8:22 PM |
| i have been bulimic for 15yrs and just found out im pregnant. The last ten mnths have been a struggle and i have cut back from 5 times a day to about once a month binge n. It can be done and ive done it on my own. I understand as i feel exactly the same at the moment but find distractions are very useful along with oA. you want help still submit back and i will tell you about my experiences in how to overcome bulimia ↑ |
| Name: jodi | Date: Apr 14th, 2006 10:30 PM |
| hey.. i dont no what to say to the pregnant situation but i want to be bulimic so bad i try to make myself vomit but it just doesnt work im so selfconcious of my body please help me! ↑ |
| Name: Sandy | Date: Apr 30th, 2006 6:42 PM |
| Hello everyone i was bulimic for about a year and i would throw up 4-5 times a day. It took over me and controlled my whole life. Finally i seeked help and was put on prozac. Now i am as happy as can be, more confident, and i feel like i am actually living a NORMAL life where i can control my own life. Anyways how ever i still have ONE fear, I am 20 years old and Would love to have children one day. I just hope i am still able to. Although i have recovered and eat very healthy i just hope i did not damage my body to the point where i am prevented to have children. If anyone needs to talk or needs advice please email me because ive been through it all and i know EXACTLY how you feel!! My email is [email protected] ↑ |
| Name: Angie | Date: May 6th, 2006 2:36 PM |
| God i remember that....When i found out i was pregnant i had the same to urge to make myself sick but i knew i could harm my baby... ↑ |
| Name: Sick and Sick of It | Date: May 7th, 2006 10:51 PM |
HELP!!!!
Some body any body. Ive been bulimic 4 about a year now and half way through I told my parents ane friend and all they said was to stop, so I told tem I would but I haven's they don't understnad that its not as easy as just stopping, I want to every day and every day I don't. I don't want tp be sick anymore I want to be normal and not think about food and being too fat every waking moment of my life, its effectig me emotionally and effecting the way I interact with the people in my life. My parents dont know that im still at it and now Im to scared and ashamed to tell them coz they think ive beaten it. Im so scared to tell anyone because I know that they will never trust me again but I can't stop on my own. PLEASE someone out there put me on the right track, what works depression drugs? seeing your GP? Therapists? Hypnotists? What? Help I dont want to do this any more, how do I stay thin though it seems literally and I know everyone say this that everything I eat puts weight on me. Any reply would be appreciated thanks email me at [email protected] ↑ |
| Name: danielle | Date: May 8th, 2006 11:28 PM |
| I have been making myself sick for around 4 yrs now. My weight has yo yo'd for the pass 2 years due to stress. It got to the stage where i would not even keep water down, but one day i decided i had had enough and from that day on (6 months ago) i try to keep all my food down, i do fall apart on my low days but i am getting there. Now a size 12 I am trying to eat properly and also going to the gym. My best wishes to any one suffering the same as me. ↑ |
| Name: eleni | Date: May 9th, 2006 1:12 PM |
| what is your peopels problem. by being bulemic you are making your selfs more unhealthy than you were before. ↑ |
| Name: anne | Date: May 14th, 2006 9:00 PM |
| i have been bulimic for 22 years i am better but i struggle every day can someone email me and chat? i can help you as much as you can help me my email address is [email protected] ↑ |
| Name: michelle | Date: May 15th, 2006 8:21 PM |
| I am only 16 years old and I have had bulimia for a very long time but i am also 29 weeks pregnet and I still make my self vomit but I try so hard not to I also think that oyu nned to talk to someone if you are going through something like that becaouse it is not good for you or your baby. But you are not alone there are a lot of women that go through the same thing as you. ↑ |
| Name: charlie | Date: May 15th, 2006 9:54 PM |
Hi
I have been anorexic for around 5 years with spells of bulimia - I have a little boy who is nearly one. I totally relate morning sickness 'gave me an excuse' to be sick and i did play on it but i could't handle the guilt. I did make myself quite alot tho at first. In the end i decided to stop - the way i did this was look at it as that I would only be pregnant for 9months after this i could do what i wanted without harming my baby. I did it it was hard try making meals in advance, plan ahead and if you are struggling remind yourself that it isnt forever. I am not saying this is the best way but it helped me. ↑ |
| Name: db | Date: May 19th, 2006 9:05 PM |
| i was in the same boat you're in now. i had been sick for 10 years and just could not stop while i was pregnant, even though i let everyone else think i was fine... it was the most stressful and guilt ridden 9 months of my life. thank goodness i didn't do any damage to my beautiful daughter, if i had i would never had been able to forgive myself. i know it's difficult to stop doing what we do, and there is no magic button or magical words that can help or cure us... the only advice i have is to take your vitamins religiously and try to stick to healthy foods that you won't be too guilt ridden to leave in your tummy. breastfeeding once the baby is born is a great health benefit to both you and the baby... it will also help your tummy go back to where it was before you got pregnant. good luck and god bless. ↑ |
| Name: ashely | Date: May 22nd, 2006 4:52 AM |
| Name: jess | Date: May 22nd, 2006 9:23 PM |
| sorry i havent got any children but i cant stop doing it myself, not bothered about my weight i just do it coz am miserable ha but listen you r doing incredibly well to only do it a few times so keep it up for your baby, wen its just you yor damaging thats one thing but a baby.......keep yer chin up your stronger than u think x ↑ |
| Name: Cata | Date: Jun 10th, 2006 11:34 PM |
| Hello, i'm 35 weeks pregnant now. I use to throw up once a day for 7 years before i became pregnant. Now I've improved because i don't want to cause harm to my baby but still do it once a week. Can anybody that had the same problem tell me about the outcome of their pregnancy? i'm very scared ↑ |
| Name: MichelleHope | Date: Jun 28th, 2006 5:51 PM |
Hi all. I'm so sorry to read of all your struggles. Trust me, real, complete recovery from bulimia is possible and not that hard. I found my path to recovery after 14 years of severe bulimia as well as chronic depression, anxiety, rage, panic, and confusion by working with a coach specializing in non-religious, spiritual growth.
As you grow strong in spirit and in heart and begin to admire and trust yourself more and more, your need to turn to coping mechanisms like bulimia just fades away. It happened to me in just a few months of dedication, focus, and commitment.
I share everything I learned as well as my coach's exercises that were most powerful to me in my recovery. I link to good books that helped me. Plus I link to other individuals who are either struggling themselves or who are recovered and dedicated to helping others.
You can find me at my blog, http://onbulimia.blogs.com. Don't give up! You just need new tools and new information and skills to help you to get well. If you can't do it for yourself right now, do it for your babies.
With love and hope,
Michelle Hope ↑ |
| Name: justmoi814 | Date: Jul 16th, 2006 4:10 AM |
| Please stop or you WILL kill your baby. Part of the joy of pregnancy is eating because you are gaining weight anyway! You must stop doing this ASAP! ↑ |
| Name: Pianophillic | Date: Jul 18th, 2006 6:15 AM |
all i can say is , its your baby! you know? So i think somehow you have to find the inner strength to accept that you will gain weight... and gain all the weight (even if yougain a litle more then you want to) whiole you are pregnant and then tell youreslf you can purge your brains out when youre done giivng birth and you can loose ALL the weight soon..... tell youreslf anything, reward yourself with anything..... if you hate yourself that much when you eat... think of how it will feel if something happens to your baby? Im not trying to be bitchy.... I cant stop purging... but i truley believe that if I was having a baby I would even risk becoming fat- truley fat so mny baby could be healthy... and i know that realistically that wouldnt happen. you can go to a nutritionist who can tell you EXACTLY what to eat so your baby is healthy. you can also sign yourself into IP where they wont let you purge... this migh tbe a great time to become healthy. Ar least for 9 months. As a mom you will be so happy and proud when you deleiever a healthy happy ALIVE baby...
good luck ↑ |
| Name: xXx_Alesha_xXx | Date: Jun 20th, 2007 3:32 PM |
hiya hun
i cnt relate to what your saying but i hope i can help...
instead of eatin hard food which makes you feel sick why not try softer food lyk ice cream and soup things like this that why your body will think you only drinkin helping you to keep you food down. im sayin it will work but i hope it does. alesha xx ↑ |
| Name: kaz | Date: Mar 3rd, 2009 9:31 PM |
| I am 44, and a mother of 3, i would like to know if any mum or dad, has developed bullimea late in life, because i feel so isolated. ↑ |
| Name: Dafne | Date: Jun 26th, 2009 12:56 AM |
| I started at age 30. I was pregnant. I convinced myself I would stop after the baby came. That was almost 4 years ago. It comes and goes. I just started up again yesterday. I was doing so good too. I had changed my eating habbits. I don't know what went wrong. I think I stopped seeing results. I have three children. My third pregnancy, I purged as well. But this time... my ultra - sound wasn't normal. My fluid was almost dangerously low. I knew why. I didn't tell though. I had to go back for ultra -sounds every week until the end. I hope this helps put things in perspective for anyone pregnant and purging. The dehydration could end a pregnancy. ↑ |
| Name: saw1 | Date: Mar 16th, 2010 5:22 AM |
| I really need help. I don't binge like most people, I just purge. I used to be very thin, and then as I got older, I started gaining weight. I weigh myself at least 3 times a day and I'm obsessed with fluctuations. I want to be thin more than anything. I love the feeling of vomiting. I feel so relieved when everything I ate comes up. But, I can't do this anymore and I have no idea how to stop. If I had willpower, I wouldn't eat anything I'd want to throw up in the first place. Any ideas/ similar experiences? ↑ |
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