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Name: Kathi1804 | Date: Feb 9th, 2007 10:13 PM |
Dear Lucie, I know what you are going through. I was fighting so hard and I thought I was doing fine, but than it just came back - I don't know what to do anymore - I tried everything. I talked to my parents about it, to my friends and even to a psychologist... It's always coming back. I have been sick for the last three day, so I didn't go to school, but what did I do instead? Yeah, I went binging in purging, all day long... Gosh, you are so right, why do we have to listen to these demons? Why can't we just push a button so we don't have to listen to them anymore??? I don't wanna do this anylonger! I can't! I hate eating entirely way too much and I hate making myself sick afterwards, but I even more hate myself looking inside the mirrow and seeing a fat depressed girl. I was so happy, I always loved life and tried to enjoy it to the fullest, but nowadays I'm just sad and unmotivated. Every single evening I tell myself, tomorrow you'll do it better - but the next day I end up doing the same s**** all over again! Why can't we just stop? I hope you'll feel happier after this weekend! I'm always here if you want to talk to somebody! Take care, ok? Kathi ↑ |
Name: lucie | Date: Feb 12th, 2007 9:01 AM |
Hi kathi, thanks for the message! i know what you mean. if i ever have a days holiday off work i always end up binging and purging all day long. i do feel a bit better after the weekend but i am sick of being in this trap and i just feel 'dirty ' inside all the time. I am not suicidal but i am starting to the think how can i end all this for good?!? lucie ↑ |