My husband and my story is realy like a fairy-tail. We have been together for 7 years, and married for 2. It all started way back in 1986. We where crazy about each other. We where best friends. We where each other's shadow. We went to the same school and rode the same bus. When the bus driver would let him off the bus he would hop on his motorcycle and try to beet the bus to my house. I would jump on the back of his bike and we would ride everywhare. He would take his helmet off and make me where it. He was very protective over me. He never let anyone hurt me.
We where so much in love. That summer he went out of town for a couple of weeks to visit family, and while he was gone my family and I moved away. We never got a chance to say, "good-bye."
Later he met his a woman, they married and had 2 kids right around the same time I met a man married and had 2 kids after I found out I had cancer. A rumor somehow found it's way to him that I had cancer and died. Of course I didn't.
During the 5 years he was married to his ex-wife she was extremly crule to him. She treated him as if she was inferior to him. She killed his spirit, and his self-estem. In short she ruined the him I knew back in 1986. While this was going on with him and his ex, the same was going on the same was going on with me and my ex, but it affected me different than it did him.
After 12 years we finally found our way back to each other again. We moved in with each other, his kids moved in with a month later and in 2005 we finally got married.
My husband is not the same person as he was back then. Because of his ex he is now leery of commitment, and closed off. Since we have gotten married he has gotten better, but I still see it a lot. I sometimes see the old him peeking out from behind the though-man mask. One day he acts as if he hates me, the next day he don't want me out of his site. I sometimes feel he just keepd me there to help him with the kids. His best friend disagrees. If he died tomorrow I would not know if he really loves me. Is this just a guy thing or am I worrying for good reason? ↓
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