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well my world came crashing down when my husband told me he wanted to separate. i love this man with all my heart. he would come home on breaks from work for a few hours, and we would both cry in eachothers arms as he told me he was sorry. he told me there is more to talk about, but that he couldnt just yet. and that he didnt want to put to much on me with me being about 5 months pregnant. one day i got tired of not knowing everything. and he told me that when i was away on a trip with my family that he got drunk. that is something he hasnt done in a vary long time. so he doesnt remember anything from that night. the next morning he woke up in a girls bed that he knows from work that has liked him for a long time. my heart sunk. tears were in both our eyes. i have forgiven him. If the Lord Jesus Christ can forgive this, than so can i. doesnt mean its not hard to not think about, but he is forgiven. i moved back home. its been really hard not to wonder if he is with her or not. then to see he doesnt have his wedding ring on. it killed me. i still wear mone because my heart belongs to him. we still talk to eachother everyday, and see eachother about the same. he is excited about our son, and still thinks i look sexy even with my belly. then the other day he brought up divorce. we wernt going to talk about that till we had the baby and a little time had past. i knew he was hidding something. he sad that he was going to get roommates and one of them was a girl, i asked if it was the girl from work and he said yes. i was devistated! i knew there was more. then he told me that she might be pregnant! i lost it! how could this be happening to me! how could he move in with her and choose her and their baby, and not choose me and ours? at first i was a little mad. but now im trying to figure this out. im not sure that she said that she is pregnant, she would be going into her 3rd month and my husband was told it was to soon to tell. she should have known along time ago! i think the reason he brought up divorce was becaues it hurts to see me, when all this is his falt. i can see the hurt in his eyes when he looks at me. he is taking the easy way out that is now hurting me even more. he didnt even want to tell me, what hide this forever? anyway i just need a person that is outside the box to let me know what they think. i dont want husband bashing or anthing, please! ↓
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