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Name: laurie c

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I have just delivered my daughter (2nd child), how thrilling. I have suffered w/ eating disorders my entire life and have decided (during pregnancy) that when she was born I would truly try to change my ways; for myself and her. I know it will help my son also if I get things under control but I feel like it is more likely to be an issue my daughter will carry.
The past 6or 7 years, I have filled my emptyness with food- and in the end got to be a size 16/18 5'3 1/2" 201lb woman. For years and years before that- I was under dcts care and was learning to swallow again after getting down to 86lbs.
I really want my life under control- do you think things can change? ↓

Name: lucie | Date: Feb 20th, 2007 10:14 AM

yes they can change, it is very very hard work. Just bear in mind that this is a behaviour problem and just as we can learn behaviour we can unlearn it.

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Name: laurie c | Date: Feb 20th, 2007 2:10 PM

thanks- I need all the help and support I can get right now (as I consider what quick thing to have for breakfast). Food controls my life- good and bad. I enjoy yummy food like seasoned meats, stinky cheese, wonderful breads and fresh fruits. But then there is the "me" who is alone, bored, sad, slightly pitiful. That person dosen't care what it tastes like. I just eat to eat and sometimes don't even know I have just eaten 2 brownies, a cookie some chocolate milk and some banana bread- until I look around at the crumbs and wonder why I feel like crap.
It's like having two personalities- the healthful, aware, happy one and the lonely, fill your body just to be full one. That is kind of sad. ↑

Name: lucie | Date: Feb 20th, 2007 2:58 PM

well i can understand that you feel like there is two different you's i have that. I have a bubbly character which is me and then i have the other me who lies to her family and friends, binges in secret and is so sly when making herslef sick.

well done for admitting a problem.

lucie ↑