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i have been bulimic for some time now...but just avoiding food all together seems much more logical...i have eaten a salad with no dressing and some cottage cheese sence sunday...i confided in my older sister that i have an ed, and she told my other sister, who told my brother, who told my mom, who told my preacher who has now set me up with a doctor friend of his that i now see every thursday at 8 am. it really doesnt help cause now im very resentful to my entire family for there dishonesty, hte sister i told said she wouldnt tell, and she did...now my entire family knows, and i have a very large family, which consists of 7 boys and 4 girls including me...its so hard cause i know i have a problem but its soo comforting to know i at least control something in my life...i can eat when i want, or not eat...why cant ppl just except that. i have the choice to do what i want...but really i dont anymore, ill think ill just start eating agian and ill have like a pb and j sandwhich or whatever, but then i take a little trip to the bathroom...and it starts all over...its sooo hard when i hate myself already then i have all my friends and family against me too. dont they see i need them right now to be on my side and wanting to help me not condem me...i guess i just need encouragement from someone...anyone, causei m not getting any from anyone esecially from myself... ↓
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| Name: Taylor | Date: Aug 3rd, 2005 4:06 AM |
| Well I'm sure that your family loves you very much they probably don't know how to handle the situation correctly do you believe in christ if you do call and depend on him and know he can and will help you. ↑ |
| Name: Brooke | Date: Aug 30th, 2005 5:18 PM |
| I am anorxic my BMI is 18.5 and i am still losing it is addicting like a drug... I feel so disgusting right now because I have binged today and not thrown up. and I have to stay small because I am a gymnast level four. and I have to stay 5"3" I am also 15... my family knows now too and my friend is an ana too... ↑ |
| Name: Louise | Date: Aug 31st, 2005 3:47 PM |
| It is very hard to trust people in your situation because, as you see it as being dishonest, your family and friends think that they have your best interests at heart and in the long term, they are probably right. However, this does not make it any easier for you and I can totally sympathise with you. I was anorexic and obsessed with counting calories. Because my mom said I was ill and needed help I didn't trust her. I wouldn't even let her order me a diet coke incase she got full fat. I also wouldn't touch any tea she had made my incase she had used sugar instead of sweetner. It became obsessive and I felt like she was totally against me, even though she never did any of these sneeky things, but I became paranoid she was trying to make me gain weight without me realising. I know you feel betrayed, but try and talk to someone about how you feel. I don't know about you, but I was totally ashamed about having an ed and didn't want everyone to know because they would think I was weak. Suddenly this became more of a fear than eating and I realised that the only way to get people 'off my back' was to show them that I was making an effort to get better. It was really difficult, the most difficult thing I have ever done. I felt so guilty after eating that I really wanted to 'make that visit to the bathroom', but forced myself not to. The easiest way to do this was to eat with other people, enjoy thier company, have fun and hopefully this would take my mind off of it. I would also think, if they can sit here and eat exactly the same meal as me then why can't I enjoy it too?. Sometimes I felt so bad I'd just break down to tears, but refused to be sick and by this point I had told my mum everything and she used to congratulate me when I ate and enjoyed it. She didn't understand, but it was good to have someonethere.She would also remind me how much better I'd feel if I ate - I'd have more energy, be less depressed, be warmer and enjoy the company of other people and going out more. So please, for your own sake try and eat something new everyday, it doesn't have to be big, just get a variety so you don't end up sticking to 'safe foods'. I am now totally recovered. It took lots and lots of work and time, but i'm fine now and loving life and my family again. You can do it. Good luck and remember - you are never alone! ↑ |
| Name: babe | Date: Sep 19th, 2005 9:44 AM |
| Name: kendra | Date: Sep 28th, 2005 2:38 AM |
| hi my name is kendra i live wiht my mum no one nos about me its hard and i get confused ↑ |
| Name: chanise | Date: Oct 27th, 2005 3:11 AM |
| i understand what your saying but your family are only trying to help and what you are doing tomyourself is not gonna make you feel any better in the long run i've tried starving myself and it doesnt work for me and im glad cause i dont have lots of problems on my head. i dont like my body but what person does and im going to lose weight the proper way i sugest you do too cuse you could cause serious harm to you and your family.sorry if what i said was no help to you. write bak ↑ |
| Name: Lorrye | Date: Nov 8th, 2005 3:03 PM |
| Emma - I have a daughter that has been in treatment after going in ICU and almost dying since March. It is a very difficult disease and my daughter also things we can be controlling but also knows that we love her like your family loves you. Remember it makes you feel good but what about the guilt? Seek help before it is too late because we have been down a long road and still have a long road to go. ↑ |
| Name: sopstar | Date: Dec 2nd, 2005 10:50 AM |
| How annoying! cant your family just let you try and become perfectly thin? what you should do is be quiet purger. pretend that youve gone against belimia and anorexia. wear clothes that make you look fat whilst you are around them but when you are out you can show off your body! its simple;with parents=fat, anti ed, with m8s=sexy skinny girl, of whom everyone envys and wants to be. ↑ |
| Name: diana | Date: Jan 16th, 2006 9:16 PM |
| How coul'd they posibly encourage you. By saying "yeah honey, i'm so proud of your eating disorder?" No, you have to reolize that if you don't stop they'll only hate you more and more. ↑ |
| Name: Francine Paisley | Date: Jan 16th, 2006 11:42 PM |
| I understand what you are going through. I haven't had almost any food in almost 9 months. One day I was weighing myself and my sister came in and saw that I only weight 98 pounds. I asked her not to tell but she did. now my all of my sisters know and there is 5 of them and I am worried they will tell my parents and they will bring me to a doctor to tell me I have a problem. ↑ |
| Name: Chelsea | Date: Jan 19th, 2006 8:07 PM |
| ok ive been anorexic for sometime now um its been 3 years.i think its cuz mostly of my family my dad nd mom fought all the time nd now he is in prison cuz hes a sex offender. my mom knows that i have a eating problem but i think she denies it nd everytime she comes home to always asks wut i had to eat it gets sooo annoying i wish she didnt care at all.nd my aunt knows it too shes always makin me eat.ugh i feel so gross nd fat after i do. nd like all i can think of is how to avoid food and my aunt.i have to stay small cuz im a cheerleader nd its so hard not to eat.but i totally know how u girls feel. ↑ |
| Name: Im Weak | Date: Mar 14th, 2006 3:51 AM |
im really young and im very self consious. i have a really small figure and waist and i have been called anorexic before even though im very not. i eat bad and more than i should. even though i do have a small figure, i have a huge amount of fat on my legs and stomach. well, the amount that is on there is more than what should be in proportion to my body. i want to be anorexic to lose the extra weight and then stop instead of having to suck in all the time. im too weak to become anorexic though. i have one of those familys that you always have to eat. it kinda sucks. im scared of throwing up though. i try to work out but im too lazy. im weak. im lazy. im fat. i have a problem.
i dont know what to do about it. i want to be skinny but its not working out. ↑ |
| Name: lisa | Date: Mar 23rd, 2006 8:56 PM |
| i completly get wot u mean, it seems like everyone is against u and they just doont ge it, and u just want everyone to go away and leave u alone and just acept u for who u are! ↑ |
| Name: kelly | Date: Apr 1st, 2006 12:17 PM |
| im anorexic and i love it i don't want to get better i like being really bone skinny its me and i don't care what ppl think...im 16 i weighted 54kg when i started being anorexic now im 34kg and im fine... im healthy and no one is going to get me to eat. docs keep telling me if i don't eat im going to die!!! oh well its not like i like my life anyway it either i die of anorexia or i committe sucidie life sucks anyway im going to die just sooner then later... ↑ |
| Name: Ashley M | Date: Apr 2nd, 2006 1:06 AM |
| ya'll know ya'll can die that way in it will make you ill i use to be like that but i stoped after i lost my friend cant you see theres people out there who cares so much about you in your trying to kill your self i have problems i cut my self but im trying to get out of it and you should to yes i know it is hard.im not trying to tell you what to do but there are people out here who care i know i care for all yall and i sure your family in friends do to and they dont wont to lose you like i lost my friend its really hard to lose someone you care so much about ↑ |
| Name: abi | Date: Apr 6th, 2006 5:33 PM |
| i no what it's like when your family and friends are against you but it's better than being fat, im fat seriously i've tried throwing up after meals but i can't!? you probobly think im stupid but it's the worst feeling being as fat as me! ↑ |
| Name: sara | Date: Apr 8th, 2006 1:27 PM |
hi ,
people say im always anerwxic but i neer listened now i have lost so much weight and i have all the simpptems of being anerexic i am so scard but i cant control it. help me somone , but i know i wont really listn i mean i am a strate a* student part from ict lol ↑ |
| Name: cricy | Date: May 1st, 2006 10:44 PM |
| hey guys yeah im anorexic but i also work out so i have muscle and i dont look bony i mean just cas im anorexic and i dont eat much doesnt mean that u start to look ugly i mean if ur gonna be anorexic than u need to atleast eat a lilttle breakfast than work out alot and if u get to the point were u feel like fainting than drink some gatorade and a piece of bread ive been anorexic since i was 8 and ive nver had a problem well im going to go ↑ |
| Name: Valerie | Date: May 2nd, 2006 12:18 AM |
| I understand completly, and I suport you because im anorexic (just started like 5 days ago) and i threw up today, so i understand. ALSO. I have a question...do u have to work out when ur anorexic?...like will i get all flabby and stretch makrs if i dont work out? ↑ |
| Name: Am i an anorexic | Date: Sep 19th, 2007 4:18 PM |
| oh my gosh i know exactly how you i have been feeling the same way exept my family doesnt know about me. but i just have no 1 to talk to about it. i have only eaten a fruit salad in the past 3days neway dont give up unless you want to. dont do it because of any1 else. the first time i tried not to fast (about 2 weeeks ago)i couldnt do and would always resort back to lots of junk food and i would just feel so guilty after but now i am sooooo much better at it and today i told 1 of my friends at school what i was doing and she told me to stop. she just doesnt understand how it feels to be sooooo fat and whenever i look in the mirror all i can see is a fat hefalump. im just gonna stop looking in the mirror altogether. ↑ |
| Name: cherisalorraine | Date: Sep 20th, 2007 10:31 PM |
| Name: Vanny | Date: Oct 1st, 2007 12:35 AM |
| ya i know what you mean; mirrors are my worst enemys, seriously my face morphs into somethin different everyday. sometimes i'll look at the mirror for hours, wanting to just cut all that disgusting fat off. other times i really try to avoid them because i can't bear to look at myself. and then therere the times it suddenly decides to be my friend (after days of fasting) and make my stomach appear flat and beautiful, and my face thin with accentuated cheekbones and absent cheeks when i smile...such beauty indeed ↑ |
| Name: Vanny | Date: Oct 1st, 2007 12:38 AM |
| Valerie: hey you don't live in NY state do u? ↑ |
| Name: David_82 | Date: Oct 19th, 2007 3:16 PM |
| im not bulimic but i have been dieting i only eat dinner now and its hard cause i dont really wanna eat that but i live at home and i dont want people to become suspicious. im scared of makin myself sick incase i become addictedi just want to be skinny, i hate my stomach its flabby and vile i hate it i just wanna be skinny so much. ↑ |
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